greetings will be farewells

2011-10-23T05:42:00.000-07:00

I am all smiles again...I am relieved to be single and happy...I love myself more, my frens a whole lot more..and ermm I have so much more confidence in me..Halloween is alwaes a blasted month..USS Halloween Horror Nytez was way awesome!..I have vids on my fb..check it out..

Looking frward to the real partay on the 29th..Sentosa Spooktakular next up! :)

2011-10-21T08:26:00.000-07:00

Today is my darling Candypunk's 22nd Birthdae, had a lovely dinner @ Eatzi with she n her family, and den the most awesomest 15mins massage on the massage chair..All in Yishun SAFRA,dey decorated for Halloween,n it's cool,coz wen i got in and pushed the door a ghostly figure was flyin towards me..n I was smilin..to myself at the neat trick.. :) After dt we chilled,talk about men,life and partayy(duh uh),and cupcake war! sabo tyme!

I have been cryin n laughin on off..sometymes doing both @ the same tyme,,,n den I'll realise, I sound a lil mental..n I'll tell myself to shut up n sleep :) Niwaes USS Horror Nights tmw! I'm psyched!!! hey at least drop a msg if ur reading my blog..I'll be happy :) mmuahhh! Loves all of u..except u, n u, n u..ok DONE.

2011-10-20T06:44:00.000-07:00

Sumtymes,not everythin u think is ryte..Look around..open ur mind for a different view..Breathe, think,breathe, think...remember it is not always about u,if you love her enough,her opinion matters..alot. Think.Please.

2011-10-19T06:46:00.001-07:00

I dunno why I'm actually bloggin again..nobody blogs anymore..Life has been really hard ,lovewise i must say..I dun remember worryin so much bout love wen i was wif shakir..i was secure,we were both sincere..no one was trying to destroy us..but this one,though just recently ended, seems so dark n full of secrets..it's almost as if, both of us noe we hv been tryin to convince ourselves dt we love each other..doh,i have to say, i was in love n i do still love him,if nt dearly.but ders just these hidden thoughts,hidden feelings,,of our past love..we are ready yet nt dt ready..almost scary n disgusted at myself for allowin to fall so fast into this rshp..he sounded realli genuine n into me ,but der must hv been mre dt i didnt noe,,,but one thing i can tell u how we failed in this rshp is coz we lack COMMUNICATION. at the beginning i dun bother,,after awhile he didnt bother n i wonder y he didnt bother..but we were happy,den suddenly the ex came to destroy us,,n because of communication we fell to pieces...ive saed this befre,i'll say it again..I have never seen a worser person den the ex of his...I hope he realli hates her,cause it's obvious she's no good for him..No matter wt theyve been thru in the past..if sumone can be so heartless as to break us up thru lies..den the persn obviously dunwn to see u happy..I care for u k Hazmil..I'm just thinkin..we hv been hiding many things frm each other,n too many ppl njoy seeing us fall and expected us to fail. So weird...

2011-10-17T06:42:00.000-07:00

This is me posting, 3 years after my last post..I'm 22,not as happy..I'm not with Shakir anymore..life isnt carefree n full of love animre..as im typin dis im tearing..i miss those days

2008-09-25T05:48:00.000-07:00

all good tings must come to an end.....

alot of tings happened..its been party3 4 me..

still learning songs..so still rock rocking awae

2 many tings happened, i cnt fill up on everyting,realli,coz i've forgotten..wteva dts happened...lets just noe..dt my life,at this point of time, is realli stressful..n i noe millions others are having a waaaeee harder life den me,,so ive got ntg to complain about...i shud start Goth Book Part III.Ive lost the 2nd one...cant change my poetry in friendster coz it'll be a waste if i erased the old one and put the new one,,den i dun save my work,u noe..its good,dark,pagan poetry..im proud of my poetry,,not to b boastful..but i'm realli proud,u noe..ppl have been using my poetry for stuff dt they needed to do..n i'm happy dt they turn 2 me 4 it..I don't think der's anyting emo bout poetry writing,dts coz my poetry has ntg to do wif suicide wteva pathetic crap,u c...

coz if sum idiot's gna tell me dt i am an emo for writing poetry,jus coz im expressing myself in rhymes..ha ha hahaha,den ill pick up wteva instrument dt he or she has,may it be a recorder or the grand piano,n smash it to pieces okay...coz they're doing exactly the same ting..still expressing themselves,i create rhymes,i tell a story,u create riffs,solos wif a melodic tuneage of tale..u get me?not dt anyone has koled me an emo for writing poetry except for an emo himself,hu in turn tot my poetry was scary..stupid shit..yea wteva...astalavista babies..\m/ love u shakir

2008-06-06T03:00:00.000-07:00

i'm too lazy to update bout my life,,,Sorority has bin great for a few months...we're still kiping in touch onli dt all of us have bin very2 bz...just a few updates for u guys

*lisa bout drums from my x drummer nusara
*hopefulli new girl band will werkout
*worked at robinsons megasale at expo
*2 weeks werk,cash ,,nt bad at all
*buying keybord once get pay
*enrolling for bike with lisa n fateha
*i wan more money
*a diamond lost her world todae
*redid my imvu avatar
*want more imvu credits..the website wich offers free imvu credits wun accept me
*so u guys click the imvu link above n we cn chat 3d style..n xplore each others lair aryte...tata

love u shakir\m/

SORORITY

2008-02-06T23:37:00.000-08:00

hey everyone,this post will be in accordance to my previous post about the Sorority which me n a couple of close enough frens are opening.I guess my previous post is kind of confusing.So,I'll start over to xplain step-by-step to what Sorority is.

WHAT IS SORORITY?
-Sorority means SISTERHOOD.

WHAT ARE THE ADVANTAGES/WHAT DO WE DO IN SORORITY?
-Since Sorority is about sisterhood,only gurls are allowed to join.What we do is we get together,help each other in need,we have all gurl outings,dinner,sleepovers,workout to get our body in perfect shape together,hangout ,chill together.This will be better for us who's alwaes having guy problems,if you join Sorority,remember,u'll alwaes have your girlfrenz to chill whenever you feel like exploding when you are having problems.Advantage is we only have fun.

WHAT DO YOU DO/NEED TO JOIN SORORITY?
1.First of all before you pledge to Sorority which makes you a PLEDGER,you'll have to attend our RUSH.A rush,is a small meeting up of all the gurls who wanna join Sorority.This is the time to socialize with us,to show that we can get along with you.Therefore,your chances of being in Sorority will be higher.We have planned that the rush we will be conducting is a formal rush,where all of you will go to Lisa's house,there'll be some food,drinkz,music.SOCIALIZEx3....then,you all will proceed individually into another hallway in Lisa's house to answer some questions..

2.We are looking for girls of same interest,funny,HOT,POPULAR,CAN JUST GET ALONG WITH US,great personality,if you fall into any of these categories,especially the one in caps,ur chances are wae higher den the rest.

3.We only take in STRAIGHT girls.

LAST STEP
-Once we have done our bidding,meaning once we have chosen the girls that we feel are great to hangout with us.,the girls will be called PLEDGERS,n will be PLEDGERS till the next rush that we hold wich will be in another 6 months' time.

OUR WEAR
- THE THREE MAIN MEMBERS OF SORORITY(LISA,FATEHA N ME) WILL WEAR THIS,

-PLEDGERS WILL WEAR

THIS IS NOT THE FINAL DESIGN,THE NAME OF OUR SORORITY WILL BE PRINTED AT THE BACK TOO.IN OTHER WORDS,WE HAVE NOT DECIDE ON THE NAME OF OUR SORORITY YET,N THERFORE I CAN'T DESIGN IT YET.HEHE.For more info,contact me through fina_ghostdoll@hot mail.com
Don't think twice just attend the rush,it'll be fun.

2008-01-20T05:40:00.000-08:00

hey all,todae im gona use my blog to advertise sum stuffs...

1.First off,any guys, girls,ladies, gentlemen.elders out there who are interested in fishing.You can now rent my dad's boat to go fishing,Yes u can! okay the boat can hold 12 people,my dad will be driving the boat so,u all can bring 10 people including yourself on the boat k.The boat isnt the nicest boat on earth,of course,but my dad is renovating it.There's a 2 wooden bunk beds(if u all ever get seasick,i do.)a toilet(if u have to attend to nature's call in the middle of the sea) n the outer part of the boat will be where all of u will be fishing. U can choose your time slot as to whether to fish in the morn or nite...so if u fish ard 8pm..u'll onli get bck home at 8 am in the morning or so...worth it ryte...bring ur frens..chill on the boat,(my dad will mind his own business)..haf fun..shall i state the price?$250,not including umpan/bait. freaking cheap eh?..yar...but let me tell u,those hu went on this fishing trip are addicted to go again..so,y not u?hehe..u may cntact me at fina_ghostdoll@hotmail.com 4 more details n booking.

2. Secondly,me and a couple of close friends/sisters..are opening up Sorority.Right now,we have Lisa,Fateha,Kim(i'm not sure),Fina(me)So if Kim decided not to be in Sorority,we will onli have three main members..Okay,I noe most of you are not sure wat Sorority is.Basically,Sorority is an all girl club,better known as SISTERHOOD.What we do is we help each other in times of need,we have an all girl outing,we have meetings,parties,and sleepovers.One ting that we lack in this Sorority is academic,that is because all of us are not studying at the same college.blah3...What we are doing is forming the stereotype Sorority..hakz..okae anione babes interested may contact me,lisa or fateha n ask to pledge to Sorority.After my CA i'll be holding a rush..Meaning,girls who wants to join will attend that rush.We will see whetha we can get along with you,If we do, you will be a Pledger.I must stressed the importance to have an above average look to join.this is the t-shirt the main members will wear, and here will be what the pledgers will wear,

yea so aniting contact me thru my mail,again fina_ghostdoll@hotmail.com

2007-12-03T06:18:00.000-08:00

i am experiencing the common problem of not having enaf cash...i wanna get sum new cheap clothes 4 myself,so i wun have the phobia of thinking that ppl will sae that im wearing the same thing all the tyme...i tried to improvise ,i do...wteva it is,,holidaes' juz ard the crner,therefore cash is sumwhat dominantly demanding on my list of problems...not that ill bother to solve the rest..kwah3..haizz...so tired of learning songs..take up too much of my braincell memory...bt have to force myself...coz bf's the leader n he orders me to learn the songs instead of playing games,which i still do,so i dun c wts the point of him telling me to lessen the playing of games..coz i cant stop!!!but i love my laling very much of coz,,n therefore i stil learn the songs..n by the tyme i get to this sentence,,i realised...i am goin nowhere in this post...there's no main point down here..in other werds,,,this post is trash..like anione will read it (-.-) ..i noe u all come visitmygrave 4 the games i release 4 u lil devils to play!!am i ryte?i noe i am...n dtz y...i am posting another game website link...ive discovered this website long tyme ago,the simulation games r cool,hot n everything that u want..so...ATTACK!!! http://www.sugar-free-games.com/ u cn also find this under the links section...press 666 to end this service thank you..if not press 999 n wonder if the police is still using that number...\m/love u shakir

2007-11-13T04:34:00.000-08:00

like hell,,,im feeling abit stress ryte nw,a lil angry,,,u noe...a lil flying kick in the air will send me hopping on one foot to school tmw...shit...a few air punches will hurt my muscles coz i haven bin werking out,,,a few stomach crunches will leave me out of breath,am i obese?no,they wun kol me dt...neither will i..coz im jus unhealthy not obese,,,juz lazy, those bones...arrgghh!! i still cnt believe i haven visit my aunt hu juz gave birth to a darling baby gurl...haizzz...i wan sooo much to c the newest member of our family...but no,,ppl like me,,juz cnt seem to plan properli,,,the forgetful part of me is overwhelmingly active...i have to start exercising,,no doubt,no nid to question...mayb itll make me react mre spontaneousli instead of u noe,,,taking my own ass time to answer one question which,in turn,make ppl feel like slapping me...yea3,tell me about it...i have very slow reaction nowadaes,,i dun get it either,,,juz understand me idiotz...wt do u wan me to do wif my brain?listen to Wolfgang Amandues Mozart in the toilet,while taking a shower ,earli in the morning?getting electricuted(damnit how do i spell electricuted??electrocuted?wateva..)is the onli wae to wake up this braincells,,,make it chao-tah(burnt)..u c,in my theory,wen Mozart meets water meets electricity meets Fina Ghostdoll K.L.P..a new skill will form,,my b ill start playin like him,eh?hehehe...dtz funny,,or so,i thought...nonono!! u dun have to agree wif me,u noe...evryone's entitled to their own opinions...juz dun b rude..its not gud..but u cn b rude to EMOS ..i dun mind..hahakz...\m/love u shakir

2007-11-04T00:26:00.000-07:00

hmm..i tink that yestadae was a gud dae all in all...there's a first to evrything that we do...n yestadae i had 2 firsts...met my love at ct hal to get donuts from the donut factory...its not that i havent tasted the donuts,,,its the queing up that was a 1st tyme 4 me..both of us felt odd having to queue quite a distance from the shop itself(if u've seen how the queue looks like,ull noe wt i mean)...den we head to tanjong pagar coz we'll b miting the rest of the bandmates thr...n so that's my first tyme jamming,not jus siting there or singing..instead playing the keyboard...but in d end we all didnt make it on tyme n went sumwhr else to jam...thses ppl,i tell u,are so musically inclined,so freaking talented,,,they play impromtu stuffs..n wt the hell m i suppose to do...?hahakz...half the tyme im wandering how to blend in with them...played sum shit n my love followed...for awile onli la..coz i duno wt else to play after those batch of notes...but they are nice ppl,,they are...i noe if i wanna b on the same level as dey are i better start learning my chords...n try to do sumting bout my tone deaf problem...hahahkz....i wish i could stop playing all these games,whether online,trial version or mobile games n focused on playing the keyboard,,but i cant!!!in fact, after this...im heading to the website n c recent games update...gudness...hehe...yey,yestadae was fun i gez...reminded me of the old tymes i hangout with metalheads..its bin awile,yes...\m/love u shakir

2007-10-31T00:01:00.000-07:00

i can c,very clearly,crystal actualli...that my blog is as dead as can be,,,hehe...niwaes...i have dis idea ,,a brilliant idea to me ,of course...it will be an honour 4 me to start THE ANTI-EMO ARMY/SG...if u noe wt i mean...i dunno how though to attract ppl hu r against tiz shitheads..one thing i noe if ppl actualli join thiz group,there'll b meet-upz to strategize and to elect leaders or to welcome new members,ill have our shirts or anything wearable,designed with the I AM PART OF THE ANTI-EMO ARMY slogan...n of coz wt else do we do if not to make sure we will get those emo asses down the drain...tiz is no joke..i am serious of coz in forming this army...of coz we're not gona kill the emoz,we'll juz give them a taste of their own sad2 lives,,,(plus,their lives wun b that bad if we dun interfere ,,do we?...) in other werds we're helping them out ,,by bringing them dwn..hopefulli we wun c a single emo in the small city of singapore....so ppl...if u guyz are interested...do mail me...fina_ghostdoll@hotmail.com ...doh i got a funny filing there wun b any response...hehe...all particulars will b kept private n restricted to the views of public...thnx.. \m/love u shakir...

2007-10-15T23:34:00.000-07:00

yestadae,,was da first dae of skul...we're suppose to have a party with pringles n green tea,,if u noe wt i mean...probably dts d idea of a party from a teacher's point of view...i call it snack tyme...hahakz..niwaes...we took alot of pics,,we ,as in my classmates n i...ive yet to edit the pics k bebs..i'm a lil bz now...yar..i dun like to rush when editing..the pic will not b nice dt wae...hehe...c u tmw..now i nid to go jalan raye!!!!!! \m/ love u shakir...

2007-09-20T23:46:00.000-07:00

hey everyone,,todae im gonna blog about something which i have overlooked for the past i dunno how many months...the issue of dressing up well.This matter came to me wen i met my dearest bestfren,lisa.She's single now n she can do lots of things now..n one of the most important is SHE CAN GO SHOPPING ON HER OWN FREEWILL...coz,what i realised is dt ladies,once tied down to a relationship dress up like a lame bitches...yes,the typical t-shirt,jeans,or tanktop n more jeans..hahaha...i mean,what are u trying to prove babes?that u guys cn look decent for ur guys by dressing up dt wae...well im gna put a stop to this..n this goes out to married women as well..

First thing first off,think back,wae back,about the daes b4 u met ur special someone,,meaning,(i am sure) ur ryte there walking or hanging out with a group of ur best gilfrens laughing,toking shit..definitely..hakz..n ryte there,,ur wear,makes u feel confident,comfortable and happy,yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy??????????? coz dts u!dts ur personality shining thru..dts y guys turn heads to look at u n ur bunch of gfz...coz CONFIDENCE IS EXPLODING,TRAILING UR EVERY MOVE...ouh yes,we all noe,confidence=sexy... babies dun get me rong,,im not asking u to rebel against ur bfz'/husbands' wishes in wanting u to look decent...there is a fine line between sexyhot and MCSLUTTY...afterall,they alwaes sae less is more...for eg. a short coat dress goes well on its own..BUT bares too much of ur legs..boyfren hates dt..get a pair of woolen high socks(NOT pantyhose)enough to cover ur legs..n for shoes use covered high heels...for rocker chicks out there..u jus nid one element in ur wear to bring out the rocker in u..in this case,,i will add a bini...with perfect makeup ur all set..i tried to find images to show how evrything will look like but i cnt find the images so just imagine ok...

Secondly, color combination plays a part as well,,if the dress is black buy a woolen red high socks n matched it with black heels..n all this u cn get at bugis,,this fashion outlets..all at a cheap price..for those hu tinks dt ull haf look expensive to b gorgeous ill sae ur born to b dumb..for those hu cn pull off cheap clothes bought from thrift stores n still look super hot..ill sae ur born to b wild!!!n ouh dun follow the trend..magazines comes out like this n ull rush to shop 4 those items...NO! at least not for me...i mean WHAT ARE U TRYING TO B?THE I AM A FEMALE LIVING IN SINGAPORE ARMY???haha

Lastly,,have a dae out once in a while with ur gfz again,this will make u more confident of urself,,i tink every man wans a sexy partner..(like duhh)..arms locked together with ur gfz..strut ur stuff babies(but dun act like ur on the runwae la..dun b too over) n play the counting game..1 n counting ,2 and counting..counting wat u sae?? count the no. of guys hu'll ask for ur no. bitches..(game not appropriate for housewives) hahahaha... so housewives change to mistresses,lame-looking-used-to-be-hot-gurls REVAMP back again...okae..have fun...\m/

2007-09-14T00:49:00.000-07:00

let me blog abit bout yesterdae...i am relieved that my exams are over,obviousli it means no studying 4 a month..woohoo! so yestadae our exam finished at 5.30pm..as planned, we would be breaking fast together cause there wasnt enaf time to get back home,evendoh it was the 1st day of the fasting month...was quite disappointed that onli 4 of us went to break fast together,,was hoping the rest cud join...but dtz ok..we had our dinner den i decicded to take 39 from tampines..said followed me to take the bus..wen the bus reach pasir ris i knew i couldnt cntrol my bladder nimres so we got down n i went to the toilet(duhh..) so we took the train back home instead..the bus ryde was a total waste of tyme..thnx to hu? thnx to me..hehe sorry Said,,i ges tiz is wat happens wen we all wanna get home erli...in the end we'll reach home evn later..hahakz..yar i gez dtz all folkz...

2007-09-01T07:38:00.000-07:00

well3...im kinda tired ryte now..but todae's a gud dae..yes..coz i get to mit my friends hu i havent got to mit for a very long tyme...first ting first off,i got a haircut...the service damn bad...the bitch cutting my hair dun even talk english n she didnt noe how to cut layer...till the shopkeeper explained..in the end my hair wasnt cut to layer but was thinned..very thin..n i told her to keep the length but now its short n i miss my long hair very much...wen she went to thin my hair she was exactly cutting my hair like a piece of cloth..just dragging the scissors awae...it was so freaking painful..its like getting each strands of hair pulled all at once..damn fucked upla..so i had to ask the woman to stop...she n the shopkeeper apologised(gd ting) and the shopkeeper instead did my hair(this tyme round witha proper scissors) god its a horrible n painful experience la all in all...den went to mit kim at her house coz i needed to borrow her keyboard coz mine lacks lots of tings...sinz the keyboard's heavy n noone was dere to help me..i had to flag a cab n thank god one was just ard the crner...went bck hm,put the keys..and went to lisa's house ..looking for a job during the hols...wanted to order pizza den we realized we cn just go to the fair price n get the frozen pizza...yup sat down ,ate pizza,watch bugs life..n now im here...n awae...\m/

2007-08-27T05:39:00.000-07:00

b4 we noe it we're back together again..\m/love u shakir

2007-08-14T05:39:00.000-07:00

sometymes leaving is a good thing...dead roses arent forever\m/

2007-08-08T02:16:00.000-07:00

ahemm...im sorry people but i love the movie grease soo much that i have decided to put in one of the songs as my background music...n i especially like this scene...wen couples were dancing in a row? sumtin like dt la..the one with this music on it..yupz..\m/love u shakir

2007-07-24T05:30:00.000-07:00

hmm..decided to update once again..mayb cause i myself am bored with my blog..hahakz..well todae i tried sumting new...hehe..was fun...afta skul went to mit my guy so that he can send me bck hm...went safra,chill for awhile den i decided to try his bike again...(the 1st tyme was a total mess)...sumhow,miraculously,the 2nd tyme went quite well..actualli better den wt i expected..hehe...i could cntrol the bike without it slanting sidewaes (even b4 starting the bike), den i manage to kickstart! hahaha..dt was the best part i tink..cause i tried alot of tymes but failed..tiz tyme round A FOR EFFORT A FOR PRACTICAL...hehe...den jus move forward abit onli ..n tumpang shakir..hehe..4 the moving forward part..afta a few secs of moving forward the bike stalled,again...overall,shakir told me dt i failed...sighhhh...kwah3..but im still happy...\m/ love u shakir

2007-07-12T04:31:00.000-07:00

hey evryone...just got back home from my guy's place...went to help him with his project n den ordered pizza 4 his sis's bdae...HEPPI 14TH BIRTHDAE ZANAH! HMM..MAY LUCK STALK U THRU LIFE...N DEATH..so the delivery guy came n gave us a wrong order so he had to go back n get the correct order..since i was the one hu made the call to pizza hut(coz shakir's too pampered)...i had to talk to the operator hu called to sae sorry...n she started toking bout the price..i tot we wud get cheaper coz of the earlier mistake that they made..but instead,the operator saed there had bin an increase in the price...so put down the fone n told shakir..i was complaining bout bad service n all..n naturally,shakir joined in and complained as well(over exaggerate la)he saed he wanted to write in the newspaper bout pizza hut's service n all...hahaha...i cudn't help but laugh..few seconds later the operator called again n saed sry there isnt an increase in price..n she saed sumting like,,u cn consume the wrong order but leave one slice for the rider...i was like huh? den she repeated 1 slice 4 the rider..hahahaha...once she was off the line i burst out laughing...i didnt understand..did the delivery fella went to eat one slice of the wrong order or sumting?hahaha...it just wasnt clear...i told shakir mayb the delivery guy was hiding outside n heard our cnversation dtz y the price of the pizza remains the same..hahahakz..hilarious..\m/love u shakir

2007-06-29T01:34:00.000-07:00

HMM..SINCE MOST OF U COME BY MY BLOG IN SEARCH OF GAMES..I HAVE DECIDED TO LINK SOME OF MY FAVOURITE GAMESITES...SO U ALL CN SEARCH ON UR OWN LA...K NEWEST DOWNLOAD GAMES WILL B SUSHI FRENZY AND HAPPY HOUR...AND BURGER ISLAND..\m/ LOVE U SHAKIR

2007-06-19T01:11:00.000-07:00

finally!!! im 18 bebeyz!!...hahakz..funny wen ur legal u dun wanna do tings which were illegal 4 u last tyme..toking bout fagging(fagging? dunno whetha thrs such a werd)..d otha tyme i had a conversation with my fren on msn ..saying he wanted to quit oso..so he told me wen we were underage we wanna fag..now we're turning 18 we wanna quit..hahaha..yar...it made me tink..4 awile onli..hehe..so 4 my bdae i didnt get to mit my love coz was going out wif my family for my dinner...

thrs more too lazy to upload..last but nt least

hmm..love bought 4 me NIGHTWISH END OF AN ERA DVD!!!AHHAHHHAHHx2(snow white frm shrek3 version..the shouting i meant) WOOHOO...HE TOLD ME THRS A SURPRISE INSIDE..ITS NOT THE NORMAL DVD..I DUNNO WT IT IS YET COZ I HAVENT MIT UP WITH HIM..HEHE..DTZ ALL..\m/ LOVE U SHAKIR

2007-06-13T08:44:00.000-07:00

haizzzzzzzzz..im so upset n irritated with myself...2dae i woke up at 5.11 am to go skul n den gt bck by 7 pm...so at about 8 sumtin i went to slip,told shakir to wake me up by 9.30pm sinz i gt revision to do n i wanted to play games on the net wich ive downloaded(ice cream tycoon,nanny mania and coffee house chaos)...but in the end i woke at 11.10 pm with 2 msgs frm shakir n like 7 miss kols as wel...my hp was in vibratition mode la...bt den i cn alwaes wake up with 1 miss kol...haizz..slept like a rotting log...arrghh..so upset..so nw,,,i didnt study 4 my test tmw,,,i cudnt tolk to my guy on the fone coz he's sliping n i dun wanna disturb...haizz.cnt 4 give myself 4 wasting tyme la by sliping..it is sooo irritating to me...i dunno y ...im trying to relax..i shud b playing my gmes ryte nw...yupz i shud..ciaoz...ouh ya..we gt A 4 ETP babeyz...so much 4 worrying like hell..\m/ love u shakir

2007-06-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

DUN ASK ME WHY THE NEW GAMES I PUT ON MY BLOG ARE IN CHINESE...I JUZ TOT THAT THE GAMES ARE FUN..YAR..K FOR THE TEA SHOP GAME...U ALL WILL HAVE TO PUT THE LEAVES IN THE BOILING POT FIRST,AND IF THE CUSTOMER WANTS HIS/HER TEA IN A CUP DEN TAKE THE PAPER CUP IF NOT TAKE THE BOTTLE..FOR THE CUP ONES,,THE CUSTOMER WILL WANT IT HOT SO PUT IT IN THE MICROWAVE AFTER U FINISH MAKING THE TEA...FOR THE BOTTLE ONES BLEND THE FRUITS IN THE JUICER THEN PUR IN THE BOTTLE AFTER THAT SEAL THE BOTTLE WITH A CAP BY PUTTING THE BOTTLE ON THE MACHINE ABOVE THE MICROWAVE..OKAI..HAPPY TRYING..NITING TAG ME..HEHE...\M/ LOVE U SHAKIR

2007-06-02T23:05:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD(TIMES 3)!!! PPL I JUST KNEW THIS YESTADAE,DISCOVERED BY MY GUY, NIGHTWISH HAS FOUND A NEW VOCALIST!!! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!N SHE'S GORGEOUS...BET HER VOCALS ARE GREAT TOO...MY GOD..FEEL LIKE FAINTING,EXPLODING,N I MRE OF I DUNNO WATS...TIZ IS SO CRAZY ITS KILLING ME...NOLA IM JUZ OVEREACTING..NIWAES,YESTADAE WAS ON THE FONE WITH MY GUYLA..DEN HE SAE U WANNA LISTEN TO SUMTING?I ASKED HIM WT? HE LET ME LISTEN..N I HEARD..NEW ALBUM..NIGHTWISH...(FEMALE'S VOICE) STRAIT AFTA HE GT BACK ON THE LINE I ASKED HIM WT IS DT?HUZ ALBUM? DEN HE TOLD ME NIGHTWISH...I WAS BAFFLED(baffled is dere such a werd..gosh my english is getting werser)..niwaes here's a vid of them... EHH I JUST FOUND THE SAMPLES..NT THAT NICE LA HER VOICE ..CN SINGLA BUT TARJA'S NICER..... sumhow..her sense of fashion is jus superb... HMM TARJA'S VOICE IS BETTER...TARJA'S CUTE IN THE PICS..jus realised both of them has dt i dunno wt is it called nt double chin..its sum tin to do with the chin..hmm..like khitrik roshan has..sumone help me on tiz one..\m/love u shakir

2007-05-23T00:08:00.000-07:00

hey everyone....jus have to declare that im nt looking 4 a lead guitarist nimres ..thnx 4 the participation...or halfwae participation...nt formin an all gurl band nimres...thnx 4 those hu gave support n look forward to our performance,which will nt hapen...niwaes my background is metallica playing along with the symphony...they sound better i tink by including symphonic elements..if it wasnt 4 shakir buying the dvd ..i wudnt noe that they played with the symphony..hmm i gt sore eyes..my small sis passed it dwn to the females in the house...sooo mc 4 3 daes..hahahaha..haiya..but ill miss alot la in terms of study...nvmz...ill try catch up...shakir's werking ryte nw...haizz noone to talk to..werking 4 the first tyme ..as in a proper job not a 1 dae job...da besar bf aku..hahahakla dtz all...\m/love u shakir

2007-05-16T06:57:00.000-07:00

heyy...its a very tiring dae todae..lesson ended like ard 5-30 n i gt bck hm ard 7-30pm...was exhausted n all...but sumhw i feel dt todae's PIE lesson was sumwhat important n meaningful..we took a personality test n i was a C...minz dt im the type hu wun bother to listen to u if ur nt worth listening to n all..gt a lot mre ahz..but i cnt remember all the characteristics...gotta go chek out my booklet again...n my graph actualli shows dt im very stressed out...hahahakz...it seems dt my 1st impression on ppl is dt...im sum1 huz very cold towards ppl..as doh i cnt b bothered bout feelings...however,i am actualli a fun n sociable person to b with...n i wan to try to b everything at once...see ppl ..thiz explains alot y my nick is fina ghostdoll kokko laiho pacino,aka daughter of the reaper aka hantu aka n aka n aka....i want to b everything i cn possibly desire..n dt is stressful...hahahakz...y dun u all share with me ur personality results as well...4 sure nurul,i noe ur n I..explainz y ur so emoish...hahaha!!! \m/ love u shakir ENJOY THE GAMES PPL!!!

2007-05-15T04:24:00.000-07:00

ive gt no mood to blog coz of this blog..thrz sumtin rong..i dun like it...in fact i detest it...niwaes...i nid a female lead guitarist urgently k...if u,yes u,cn play lead..n of coz if ur a gurl...plz tag my board if ur interested in forming an all gurl band k...ouh yar,,we hope to achieve symphonic powermetal or melodic death...we're starting frm scratch..werkin slowli at the moment...all of us are frenli ppl...hehe...so yes...plz consider...gosh i sound so desperate...haizzzz...n if thrs anyone huz kind enaf to help me look 4 a female lead...ill appreciate it very much\m/love u shakir

2007-05-08T04:36:00.000-07:00

ppl... lecture cn b fun actualli..dt is wen u tok crap...n dt was wt we did..we dun juz tok crap..we tok ABOUT crap and of coz tv innovation..confessions were made...whereby products from tv inno have bin longed for ..c,the funni part is..noone talks bout tv inno..and suddenly wen the topic starts ..i finally realized that im nt the onli one out thr hu watches tv inno..n actualli tot that the products are super awesome..ouh yar ppl..i forgt..i didnt jus buy the Penali Pen(i still have the inks but lost all the pens)..i bought the magic feather duster too..(the static ting didntwerk..ur hair wun stand)hahahaha..hilarious...\m/ love u shakir

2007-05-01T01:18:00.000-07:00

hey all..i wud like to boast that ive watched jangan pandang belakang yestadae at sun plaza...hehe...yey..went with my love...n i will nt act as doh im not afraid of anything...i have to admit that movie made my heart dropped dwn all the wae to level 1 of sun plaza...i was covering my eyes half the tyme doh..hehe..sound effects was cool...n thr were lots of shocking moments..hahaha...u all haf got to go catch aryte...n i tot that it was awesome that i went to catch it at sun plaza cause sumone comitted suicide thr..n yea so its a scary movie in a scary place?? hehe..ouh n the family sitting ryte behind us..my goodness..the mkck was like so keco..at the end of the movie she said"keco eh kite org ni" ...hahakz..tau pon...\m/ love u shakir

2007-04-26T04:50:00.000-07:00

isnt it super duper good that thr aren't any lessons on fridae or wat??! yey! tmw no skul..dun have to wake up erli...tiz is great news..i nid time...time kips on sliping awae...n i am getting irritated...hmm...looking 4ward to miting my band mates tiz sat..hope i dun fall sick...else...we'll neva mit...n dt..will b horrible...\m/ love u shakir

2007-04-23T05:57:00.000-07:00

we r bz arent we...we have tyme 4 each other..we have tyme..\m/ love u shakir

2007-04-20T01:51:00.000-07:00

hey ppl i juz tried this game both the online version n dwl version..its called belles beauty boutique..its realli fun... http://www.grab.com/games/g/bellesbeautyboutique ...try it frenz... click on play now to play online or dwl to play on a bigger scrin n 4 other extras...have fun!!! \m/ love u shakir...

2007-04-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

im nt sure y am i such a gaming freak..i cn search for hours 4 free games online,,may it b online games,or mobile fone games..n ryte nw ive juz dwnloaded like 1o game files for my mobile..hahaha..yes u herd me ryte...n im sure these games will satisfy me only 4 a short while ..coz i cn complete games with 40 levels in 2 daes...not diner dash however...too tough..n...coz of all these games sumtymes ill put aside mre impotant tings..like doing my homewerk? hmm..talking to my guy,,learning songs...i cn learn ez songs 4 like 1 dae..but i take 2 wiks to learn..tiz is due to the fact dt i juz haf to go n play the online games..i will learn about 3-4 bars of the sng n den go to my fav game websites...haiz...this is juz,me..hahaha...\m/love u shakir...i juz killed an ant niwaes...

2007-04-15T05:49:00.000-07:00

at tymes u nid stress,,,and at times stress burns like fuel..creating hate...mayb evn depression.hmm...4 blur ppl..confusion..hahakz..for crazi ppl..creation of a whole new person deep within..4 angry ppl..exorcism..hehe..(im having fun doin tiz..)4 ppl hus full of envy..tension in the veins...4 proud ppl..no mre bragging mentioned...4 naughty kids,,detention,,4 sexy ppl,,,sensation...4 ppl like me whrby thrs a problem of communication with the brain n the lungs,,hyperventilation,,,4 old ppl..pension..hahahaha..woopieeee..yapeda pedooo..\m/ love u shakir

2007-04-10T02:57:00.000-07:00

couldnt blieve it...creating an all girl band is tough..finding ppl n shit...drummer..so hard to find...thnk god thrs the soft website..n due to my post at the forum sum drum instructor went to kol me erli in the morning..god.. i was tired..n tiz fella was like hmm u wanted a female drummer ryte huz nt that experience..i intro u tiz gurl la...take down the no..he told me his name..i forgot..duh..hehe..yar..i dunno hw long i haf to starve myself so that i cn get the keys i wanted with a midi pitch bend..haizz...i tink 4 mnths of saving money den ill get my keys..haizzz..dunnola..irritatingla..hmm..ive to learn to relax..i haf a bassist bt i dunno hu she is..hw lame is dt..i dunno whetha im doing tings the ryte wae..bt i hope ,very much ,i am..n ouh did i tell u?i ve to sell tickz 4 sum rock n roll n indie gig..n noone wants to buy..hw great is dt..?\m/ love u shakir...

2007-04-03T23:37:00.000-07:00

hey all..i have a prob that probably each n everyone of u hu's reading this have as well..yea money prob..we all noe it..da hardship that we all have to go thru to earn crappy amount of dollars..still, as im saying this i noe thr are far more needy ppl out thr n i shud feel blessed that i am whr i am standing todae.im nt werking..nt coz i dun wan to ..its mre like i feel i shud concentrate on my studies first..makes me feel hopeless at tymes ...nid sum xtra green to buy a keyboard..a better one den wt im having ryte nw of coz..nid to fil n xperience the sound of a real keyboard nt a cheap piece of junk ive bin prcticing on,,well,den again...still better den ntg...yea..ill save money..n i alwaes try to..at the end of the dae ill spend it..nt 4 myself,,bt ppl i cre about..no regrets bout dt..its juz dt im wandaring whetha i will be able to at last buy a keyboard??will i? hahakz...we'll see...\m/ love u shakir

2007-03-23T02:54:00.000-07:00

weiweiwei...halo evry1..wel,let's see...wednesdae went to the chalet,had a good tyme there...hmm ntg scary happened except 4 the fact that sum1 knocked our door n when shakir opened the door noone was there,,noone was evn near..nt a single soul..so who was thr?? hehe..talking bout scary ive another ghost story to share with u guyz...hmm the otha tyme me n my guy went to fort canning again..n tiz tyme round well my guy saw a pocong jumping2 at a pondok near the keramat thr...n gez wat at 1st we wanted to sit at the pondok bt we tot thr was sum1 already sitting thr...bt well in the end thr wasnt anyone bt the pocong..yea...hmm so i gez sinz im in the tagging game the rule states that ive to list dwn 6 weird tings i do...im nt that weird..lets c hw many points i cn list..here goes

1.i cn look in the mirror 4 hrs without getting bored
2.i love acting like a rockstar in my room wen im home alone
3.i eat chocs onli wen im in love nt wen im sad...
4.i cursed the ppl hu dun shower in the mrning n thus suffocate me in the mrt..
5.if murder isnt sinful id haf killed alot of ppl
6.i will tell my guy evry nw n den certain celebs are actualli long lost family members of mine,therefore im fina ghostdoll kokko laiho...

yea..dtz it..nt dt weird...bt crappy i gez.hehe..\m/ love u shakir

2007-03-19T00:29:00.000-07:00

hmm...i realized that 4 da past few mthz ive bin eating carefreely(dtz bad) n now i tink im beginning to grow fat..sooo..IT'S TIME 2 DIET AGAIN!!! k..actualli i was planning to drink fruit tree's vegetable n fruit juice evridae n eat 1 meal a dae,without junk food to add in...or eat junk food n dun eat proper meal at all...but hmm sinz it is the holz already,i dun get to buy the juice at 7-11 evry mrning...meaning i have to stock up the vegetable n fruit juice at home,meaning my family will b the 1st one to finish them n i wun gain aniting...duh..\m/ love u shakir.... cereal n half a packet of chicken rice...

2007-03-15T02:33:00.000-07:00

woohoohuhu!!!yey! im done with my 1st yr..done with my exams..holidaes here i come!!cnt blieve the dae is finally here..n all i cn do is to let out a silent scream awaiting to blast out 2 the whole world..hehe..im sooooooo heppi ..xcept 4 da fact that my mum found out that my guy sent me bck frm skul on his bike..gave me 1 long lecture bout bikes being dangerous n crap..what cn i sae..if its fated that im gonna haf an accident den its fated ...may i b on a bus ,car,lorry or mre shockingly on a trishaw...hehe..jus coz she feared the tot of riding on a bike she passed diz stupid fear to me(so dt she'll be the one hu feels secured)..n thus,ppl, im the victim..niwaes..let tings haf her wae la ehz..as long as i still get to b my bf..den der's ntg to fight bck about(a waste of tyme coz she neva did undastand)...okai..n i realli hope 4 once i get to ovanite at the chalet.....sayonara...\m/ love u shakir

2007-03-01T05:18:00.000-08:00

heyy...todaes thursdae again.....well...let me tell u all how tired i am todae..im soooo tired dt i cn die ova n ova again aryte...yupz..went to skul 4 tps ...saw amritz n fida inside studying their accounts...so i juz went to read thru the NTO a/c...like amritz saed,statement of accumulated fund is d easiest to do..hakz..yupz...afta dt..went to eat at campus heaven...den we gt bored bt we still gt like ard 10 minz to klass...I,Fina Ghostdoll Laiho,suggested to go 4 a JAMMIN SESSION!!! woohoo!! ouh my god we were all so high..so eager..i swear..hahakz..well u all are probably tinkin ryte now that i'm talking bout going jammin..let me tell u wat i meant by dt..we decided to jam the skul lift again!!!!!!woooowweee!! hehe..n yar..at 1st we were disappointed dt we cudnt haf the lift 2 ourselves...bunch of chinese guyz came in..n i was as usual jumping (not that hard la,,dun imagine me as a monkey plz)along with nurul(i-dun-get-drunk-easily gurl)rita,fiza,fida..n the chinese fellas were like holding the door b4 it closes..n therefore..THE DAMN CARGO LIFT AT TECHNOLOGY BLOCK GOT JAMMED!!!(well awile la) n we were screamin,laughing,good god we were killing ourselves !!i laughed till tears ran out n thay tot i cried..wat?? no wae!!! hahakz...yea..dt was awesomeeeeeeeee....\m/ love u shakir

2007-02-17T23:33:00.000-08:00

well3,ive finally shifted to the new blogger evn doh i dun find the use of it...n dtz onli bcoz im forced to create tiz new google account thingy...hmm...ntg much to sae,exam's juz ard the crner,,nt picking up my study items juz yet...skul's nt fun...hmm...hepi new year to love n family...haizz im bored la..nice sneakin out with u in the morning..sorry ull haf to wake up erli 4 visiting..haizz..n i gt to sleep..hahakz...hmm i dun haf a clue wt else to blog about ..so yea.heppi holidaes ppl! \m/ love u shakir

2007-02-10T23:59:00.000-08:00

heyy ppl..haiz..gt lots to sae,,bt i dun intend to blog it out la..nvmz..todae's sundae,,im waiting 4 wednesdae(nt the adam's family gal) to arrive...hehe...thnx to imran,my fren...thnx 4 helping me out,,im realli greatful..\m/ love u shakir

2007-01-30T04:04:00.000-08:00

i am nt sure exactly y,,but ive bin going to habbo once again ..n i just realized that,now,thr are rooms whr i cn dine in..n i find it real cute..again im nt sure y,,,so ppl,if u wanna chat with me y nt haf a habbo?mayb we cn dine together n haf a lil chat as well? yea..childish..but entertains me enaf..now im goin to try to play the maple game thingy..heard that i cn earn sum cash if im gud at it..so y nt try my luck? coz cash is essential ppl,juz as time is..n love,n tiz,n dt...\m/ love u shakir,,p.s. love,if u dunno wt to get 4 me 4 valentines..hmm,a chopper will do..hehe..mmuax ..over here is a cute mini chopper ..will do 4 our kid in future,, bt u cn get me the real ting..

2007-01-25T23:47:00.000-08:00

okai..tyme 4 updates..wel,todae's fridae bt id like to blog bout thursdae..im am relieved n overjoyed that thursdae had turned bck to b my gud luck dae of the week(doh i didnt get to mit my love)..coz it seems that 4 the past few thursdaes that i had were nt so great of a dae..im nt sure y but i had a great time in skul on thurz..laughing nonstop,that,i cn remember..hahakz..stepped in class 30 minz b4 class ends,,den wen to fag,,ate at burger buster..just enjoyin my fish n chips whilst observing the new batch coz(fella made an announcement "class,its 10-40...let's go 4 class"..c..noone goes to class on tyme.. and the whole group went together,heppily eva after)..yea n we tried to jam the lift again..so close yet so far frm achieving that..hahakz..we will definitely jam the lift b4 our 1st yr ends..im nt joking..\m/ love u shakir

2007-01-19T07:19:00.000-08:00

well3 ppl..im in a gud mood todae,definitely in gud mood,over my head...hakz..wanna noe why?
1.todae's fridae,meaning the weekends here!!!
2.i was a teen titan todae,alongside fiza n nurul..i shall tell the story later..
3.get to mit my love after i tink ...3 daes...cnt remember la..seems long..

niwaes,here's the story of fina the teen titan...hahakz..to make da long story short,my skul lift was jammed halfwae up to level 3,n fiza,nurul n i were at dt level..so we herd the lift kinda fell(is dt the ryte werd to describe)nt fell la..like dropped dwn..wtevala u guys figure out the ryte werd den..so the ppl inside began pressing the alarm button..den they tried open the doors a little,so the 3 of us dwn thr trying to act tough,tried to force open the door too..n it didnt help la,so we decided to call the teacher,,went to the nearest class,nurul went to tell the lecturer,n she was like"wat? the lift got stuck?! wat am i suppose to do now?" -.- ...dt was my expression...den she finally koled the lift-fixing-ppl up...n in the meantime i told her i wanna give them support..den she saed ok,,wen the lift door open u 3 cheer 4 dem..den she asked the ppl inside whetha they going to pee or faint...sumhw thrz another lecturer who told her thrs ventilation dey wont faint..n i went to tell those trapped souls "dun wry thrs ventilation u guyz wun faint.."dunno whetha they herd me or not la..so the lift-fixing-ppl finally came n those trapped souls were free once mre..n the lecturer told dem to thank the 3 of us..n ryte thr was our 1 minute of fame..hahahakz..dey go thnk u ,thnk u ,to cn i haf ur no.?...dtz ridiculous...ouh ya actualli that was the same lift that rita,nurul,said,fida were jumping evendoh i told dem to stop coz i tot thr is camera in the lift..yup n all bcoz we didnt wanna go 4 bfs exam...it seems afta a few minz the lift went jammed n todae itself jammed again..now we noe hu r the culpritz??hahahakz...\m/ love u shakir..

2007-01-17T03:44:00.000-08:00

well,sry 4 nt updating,ive bin at laze to do so..but den again wts the purpose of having a blog if u dun blog tings out..yup..juz wanna infrm my frenz,,i lost my hp n its bin found but i have nt taken it bck yet...im sry if u guyz have bin msging or calling...n i cudnt get bck to u all coz of this incident la..im neither celebrating 4 the loss of my old useless hp,nor am i full of remorse...wteva it is call me by my home fone jela ehz..i realized dt my classmates love the games i put up..so ill try to put up mre interesting games aryte..hahakz...im exhausted...studies haf bin killing me,bursting every single blood cell dtz linked to my brain...dtz y diz brain of mine is pretty bloody ryte nw..n may all the blood flow so serenely ,exit thru my ears,nose,mouth.....dtz it..i wanna R.I.P..\m/ love u shakir

2006-12-29T22:33:00.000-08:00

crazy,yes totally craziee..hysterical..went to chek my friendsta,den juz look thru the bullentin coz of an upcomin gig..den i realized sumtin..i had bumped into a fren of mine frm NERRAKA,i tink a few wikz ago...n he had asked me to come dwn n support his band(diz is the 3rd tyme he had ask to watch his band's per4mance..n i neva made it to evn 1 of the per4mances)so i wanted to go 4 diz 1...n THE BEST PART IS...i dun tink i can ...yup,again..y??! coz im the ticket ambassador for some lame gig n it falls on the same date!!! very good ryte..i noe...frenz out thr bz asking me to come dwn so many times...n i juz dunno y la i neva made it...only once i came dwn to watch ARS NOVA...n dey didnt get 2 perfrm coz its late,police da halau...dtz funny too...n coz of my hatred towards harcore,metalcore...i turned dwn another fren as well....haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....diz sux...d onli tink i cn do is to tarik diri frm being dt tick ambassador la...ntg rong sacrificing a bit 4 old time frenz..\m/ love u shakir

2006-12-28T21:50:00.000-08:00

haizz....can't believe it seh...tulah sape suro jadi ticket ambassador..kn da kne jual ticket 4 sum lame gig...hu'z gonna buy the tickets la..haizz...nvmz..i have ntg else to sae already...ouh yah i found my goth book part 1 ready..n my parents read,fucking kepo..wt cn i sae..fuck hu cres...hmm the part 2 book still missing..niwaes tiz bckgrnd music has alwaes bin my fav song,,coz it's our love song..from the tyme i gt to noe him till now,i look frward to him playing the song 4 me..memories..how sweet..hehe\m/love u shakir

2006-12-23T00:45:00.000-08:00

jingle bells,jingle bells...satan lucas is coming to town...\m/.....leave ur care n concern 4 ppl u love nt u hate fools(to those so called true metalheads)...i dun nid ur stinking rotting asses to mother after me,dtz 4 sure...no nid to get stressed up taking cre after me moronz...play some games instead,put them up specially 4 u)...bring ur IQ n try to understand,juz coz im listening,doesnt mean ur making any sense..fuck ur opinions,fuck ur lack of spine,coz wen u are miserable noe dt im juz fine...u go so low,ur faggot rainbow,ur junkie ego,wun save u diz tyme..hahakz...ouh,i let out the freak,4 all to see..n she wun let u tink that ur so much bigger den me,,n i wud like to piss in ur eyes,n evn as i stretch ur face,cn i noe,whetha u feel any bigger?When I am queen they all will see the patron saint of self-injury the glitter sores will heal themselves I'll play the part of someone else,When I am queen on royal throne made out of parts of broken bones of all the devils I have known that suck the angels dry...but im nt queen..n neither r u...get a reality check dumbasses..ouh ya,n u,hu tot my bckground music mcm pukimak,,,i noe y,,,psl muke mk ko mcm puki,,n ko,,muke mcm anjing..no doubt,no question..\m/

2006-12-09T17:35:00.000-08:00

hmm...gez i haf to ban sum totless ppl out of my tagboard...dey toking no sense at all 4 sure...dis kinda of ppl juz follow suit their frenz la....i saed u ppl cn call me poser if u haf a strong reason bhind it...n all dey did was insulting..but only one fella had a bit of sense wen he tokz la..wich is mr.bean...coz he spoke to me tings dt i spoke to the posers as well...such as,juz bcoz u listen to the music doesnt mean ur nt a poser,,,n i agree...coz i told dt poser,juz bcoz ur dwl metal songs doesnt mean ur true...dey was one point wen he saed shakir n i will haf to stat listening to bands like cob,nightwish n such...its realli funny that he/she..didnt evn realize the bckground music is bed of razorz by C.O.B!!! my guy dun onli listen to cob,he cn also play their songs...n of coz he supports dt band by buying evriting original bout that band la...nt 4 getting c.o.b's side bands...dere was a point wen dey called us kental 4 nt listening to dark funeral,,wt the hell? 1 eat shit all eat shit,1 listen to dark funeral,all haf to listen to dark funeral??!!! wt kinda of nonsense is dt...we're nt followers k,,we will listen to the bands we wish to listen to,thrs nothing kental bout dt..at list i call ppl posers wif a reason...i dont wish to expose the reason actualli 4 i dun wan to bring their names dwn..but i gez i haf to lah..coz it seems dt dey dun wanna mit up with me...
4 nz,i called her poser jokingly...was on the fone with shakir n saw nz's tag sayin she wanz to go metal gig...i was like issh poser..hahakz...coz to wt i noe nz listens to metalcore,screamo...n wt the hell is she doin in a metal gig?shakir n i already anti-emo...den she cn come n sae she wans to go to a metal gig wen she listens to emo...later the next dae...went to chek thr wasnt any metal gig that sundae,,it was a metalcore gig...dere's a diff btw metalcore gig n metal gig to us la..evn if its nt 4 u..
how bout nabilah...she was in sec 1 ,i was in sec 4...in the whole of nrthland sec,i was d onli goth thr..n no1 knew bout it till i haf a frensta account...niwaes nt to b high profile,but juz to make mre frenz n kip in touch wif metal frenz...n it seems dt my profile had sumhow infested dis young minds...4 her fren,had taken the pics i used 4 my profile n put it in her own without my knowledge...there was 1 point in msn whr i remember clearly..nabilah had asked whetha i was goth...isnt it obvious at the fact that she's viewed my profile?next question,cn u help me become a goth...dun tell my sister bout thiz..dt was wat she saed..i remember dt well...i gt shocked la..coz i noe she wans to be a goth juz coz she found my profile interesting...i noe she praised me about my dark poetry n all..i noe dt..so in the msn i told her...okae,wt is goth to u?den onli ill tell u wt goth is to me..so she went to take sum goth book frm i dunno whr she got also,n read the definition,den typed it out to me..i was laughing i swear...to me diz is pure nonsense 4 she's altering her life juz to fit the description of goth that she found in dt book,,,wich is wrong,,coz i bcame a goth just like dt,,my life is the definition itself..i dun open up books n act...i was hoping that she'll haf her own opinion about goth,i was disappointed dt she read it out frm a book instead..yupz..n frm den onwards i neva did like her bein a goth,onli i didnt tell her...y? coz her sister's my fren..n coz she had so much of respect 4 me..cmonla i saw her changes,i had prefer her the wae she was b4,realli nice gurl bck den..now i dun evn noe her..haizz...so if u supporters still tink dt its rong 4 me to tell these ppl the truth about wt i tink about them,den i dun tink im being a fren..4 frenz dun hide the truth 4rm one another...long or short in the metal scene..these ppl cn b guided,,its a matter of how dey start out..tink about it..\m/love u shakir

2006-12-08T22:26:00.000-08:00

i just realize that i'm so lucky to haf shakir,my love...he's rili sumone i look up to n i rili see him as an inspiration to reach my goals...wen ppl sae dt shakir is lucky to haf me,ill correct them by saying im the 1 huz lucky to haf him..we've bin thru upz n dwnz together..n we're still good,in fact,we're great...n i thank you with all my heart 4 being there 4 me syg...n also to my metal frenz...thnx 4 the support...realli do appreciate it...as u all can see frm my tagboard dere were 2 ppl verbal fencing with me n my guy...sounds like they were victorious dwn thr ryte? hahakz...let's look bck to sum points dt they saed to bring up their names...at nite,wen i was toking to shakir...he made me realized alot of tings dt these 2 saed dt made no sense at all...let me state dem here...thr was a point wen dey tok about ozzy osbourne viewing my blog...n they tok about metallica...shakir saed to me dt nite...if they're realli in the metal scene..y are dey toking bout ozzy n metallica..obviously...wts soo metal bout ozzy or metallica..dey shud b toking bout undergrnd bands...n 1 of them saed if u guys haf bin in the metal scene long enaf,we both wud haf known huz sadistic minx...too bad we dun...coz ur nt a big fuck,u dun cntrl the metal scene..sry 4 dt...dey also tok about having a degree or sum sort,showing how educated dey are,telling me,that my vocab isnt gud enaf....if all the educated ppl are as proud as u,,,den i tink the amount of uneducated ppl are overwhelming..probably u guyz are educated by ur lecturers,,but i doubt ur parents educate u enaf..then dey was the part whr dey were bein racist..n in spore,we dun ppl hu r racist..dey call indians "keling" ...n seemed to hate indians so much...duno wt made dem tink i am an indian la...hahakz...if they tot that i was humilated,they've gotta tink twice..the werds dey speak are all backfiring...still i wonder y they call us metalheads wen they called us poseurs earlier..i tink they're juz cnfused..i dun blame dem..hahakz..yestadae love told me to hold a grudge,
now is not the time ,
love told me to be strong,
so i summon grudge,
to be my fren,
to be with me till my death states my end,
n now grudge is within me...
i am stronger now,4 i put u all bck to ur place
4 grudge had showed me whr i stand..n i still stand tall...
love with this grudge i promised,u as my witness, i will achieve my dreams..n i wun fall...ill learn the song death n the healing,nxt ill play alongside the music,then ill play alongside you,swithard..this i promise...love u very much shakir...\m/

2006-12-02T22:29:00.000-08:00

hmm..yestadae2...yarr..went to escape...best ryde viking..other den dt...it sux...syahidah's event comin soon..this thursdae...hmm..dunno whetha gt the money...duno wt to wear..n duno whetha love's stable enough to walk by then...ryte now..yup full of dunnos la...hmm niwaes...i dun mind ppl enjoying metal music..bt i so2 mind ppl yg asl bleh join the metal scene..jus to get popular,attention,n of coz this is the ugly werd...'it's the trend'...i feel its betta i tell straitfrward...to frenz or enemies..make dem tink twice..metal is an underground scene ..let me repeat..it is an underground scene...the music ,the ppl all haf low-profile...but tell me wts happening now?my frenz n to the ppl huz been in the metal scene long enaf..noes wt the metal scene is like nowadaes..n it sux okaee...mat repz n all joining..gigs? i dun evn wan to c the ppl goin to gigs nowadaes...4 i fear ill kill the minahz n matz down thr...n these shitheads ,let me tell u,wear wt we wear,listen to wt we listen,n yet thr's a diff...if uve been in this scene long enaf..ull noe wts the diff...n y let the poseurs over rule the true ones...?do u tink we like dt? yela2..smue jdk bdk metal la,the whole of spore will b wearing band shirt la..n bcoz of these typical trend fuckfaces..the true ones pkai relax...yg baru2 msok,,yg mat repz n shitheads pkai over2..its ez to spot the diff...n yet...r u true enaf to c the diff? ...n if u shitheads or standard fuckfaces haf a problem with me n my guy..u fuckin hell haf the bloody guts come tok to me face to face...coz wt im doing is just to tegor...n send u all bck to reality..i wun b angry 4 my exposure..i wun b angry if u hate me...but ill definitely will lose it if u let shit come out thru ur mouth instead of ur asshole...goth it?hahakz\m/ love u shakir...

2006-11-29T03:46:00.001-08:00

haizz...was i trembling,or shivering,or hyperventilating just now?? gez wt happened la ppl...well bcm was the last class just now..afta much negotiation,we finally decided not to cabot dt klass la...so fiza n i sat at the back of the class room...switched on my pc,,,trying to log in to msn web messenger(pc fucking slow la)...n my two classmates,guyz of coz,were doing some verbal fencing...and we all thought...wt the hell,just some small argument...hmm well,as their voices grew louder by the second,tempers raging,the satan gleefully whispering in their ears...so da fella toch thiz fella,thiz fella nt happi,punch,n dey punch,n dey kick,n dey punch,n dey went closer n closer to my place,n as i lift my ass off my chair,the fella landed just ryte at my position...wun stop there..teacher tryin to stop the fyte,i was petrified..i swear...if i didnt run awae..i wud haf bin hit as well...juz by a single second i missed the blow...waah..thnkful la..those guys are wae to strong...sinz our classes are seperated by glass windows..the next door teacher ran to help..my teacher's a small lady niwaes...n wen she was trying to stop dem..she herself gt slapped or sumtin on the face..haizz...den the fella kick the otha fella's face n he bleed...stil nt hepi wanna throw chair la,dustpan la..waah..scary la..in the end..sinz the blood was at my place...n the gurlz were squirmish bout dt..said n i cleaned up the blood..throw the tissue on the floor,n wiped with our feet..hehe..gore enaf? nope....im looking frward to mre fytes..\m/ love u swithard

2006-11-27T21:24:00.000-08:00

tings are juz nt ryte nowadaez....nt since his accident...i fil hiz pain..both mentally n physically..it sux...the question y pops up in our minds,in almost evry second dt passes by...i noe its too much to take,too shocking,too crazy...evriting ended and lost..too fast...3 daez...too soon...was perfect...till later dt nite...diz is just plain shitty...meant 4 transportation,so u'll mit me up easier..pasir ris to yishun,,,is a distance..riding the bus isnt fun..rushing to take the last bus bck home is never fun...so u took ur lessons,n gt urself a beautiful racing bike..but u noe how to ride it...u didnt speed..u know how to take care..u tried...somehow..not everybody is as kind as u are...fucking lorry hit u...n now..wtz left..im not sure.. a 3- dae memory of ur bike...hatred?disappointed im sure...too much to handle,too much loss...a beautiful bike,a future job,..ur movement hindered...n i cnt stand seeing u like diz at all love...im juz glad i still have u..n i alwaes will b with u..\m/ in sickness n in health..

2006-11-24T22:44:00.000-08:00

thursdae2...suppose to b a beautiful dae...it was,till later dt nite...

swithard gt a bike,
he took me on it 4 a ride,
den we sat at 303 n i cried,
a bitter tear,i must haf known its a fateful night...

c...i was washing the dishes when darlin called,
he was hit by a fucking lorry n it wasnt hiz fault,
after doin the dishes i called him back,
to know dt hiz in the ambulance..n i couldn't take that

chaotic was the atmosphere,
in hiz love ones,installed the feeling of morbid fear
i dunno how,i dun want to lose my dear
i wish the signz were more clear..

later dt night the clock tickz by so slowly
later dt night,he told me he was sorry
later dt night,no one slept though they told each other not to worry
the memories of that night..i wish to bury..\m/

i love u very much syg..poor gemini..

2006-11-21T22:36:00.000-08:00

haiya..big fat hope...didnt get both the jobz k..nvmz la..i gez i juz party n laze ard during the holz...den again,wen the tyme comes whr i haf to buy a gift 4 sum1 special..whr will i get the money?...arrrgghh...hahakz..no strezz fina..in the end evriting will turn out juz the wae u planned...BUT, ryte now u do not haf a plan...so how?? hehe...niwaes anyone out there rich enaf,as wel as kind enaf, to donate me a chopper?(im tokin bout a type of motorcycle not chopper to chop tingz,,if u all give me dt kind of chopper ill chop ur head n ass off!!!)hehehe...violent is good,sing in choruz,do i sound like the daughter of a devil?....\m/ love u shakir

2006-11-20T23:00:00.000-08:00

i am hopin dt i get to werk in the esplanade recordin studio(fat hope,betta den havin no faith in urself),coz i gt a fren huz fren is werkin thr...if my swithard get to werk wif me as well dt'll b double the fun!woohoo!! if dun get to werk thr cn alwaes to sum filing thingy 4 american express...talk about big money...hmm...love saed he gt a surprise 4 me diz week...i noe readila..stop denying..u gona buy a bike ryte..hehe..sejak semenjak da ade liscence ni..haizz...tk abiz2 kate nk bli moto..i'll juz pray 4 u dt u'll get ur dream bike(well,mayb nt dream bike la,coz u bleh naek moto kecik je kn..hahaha)..n semoge Allah s.w.t will lindung u dari ape2 musibah..amin..\m/ love u shakir

2006-11-10T04:02:00.000-08:00

wen im the gurl that u want ,i will b waiting ryte here...n wen ur the boy that i want we will have 1 perfect dae...peel all the scars from our way..

my fall will be for you,my love will be in you,if you'd be the 1 to cut me,thiz heart will bleed forever...

now i c the tymes they've changed,leaving doesnt seem so strange,i am hoping i can find,where to leave my hurt behind..all the shit i seem to take,all alone i seem to break,i have lived the best i can..does that make me not a man..?

Realized I can never win,Sometimes I feel like I have failed,Inside where do I begin,My mind is laughing at me,Tell me why am I to blame,Aren't we suppose to be the same,That's why I will never tame,This thing that's burning in me

I am the one who chose my path,I am the one who couldn't last,I feel the life pulled from me,,I feel the anger changing me

That's why I just beg and plead..For this curse to leave me

Betrayed....I feel so enslaved......I really Tried.....I did my time..Oh God, the anger's changing me

The hurt inside is fading..This shit's gone way too far...All this time I've been waiting..No I can not grieve anymore..For what's inside awaking...I'm done, I'm not a whore...You've taken everything and oh I can not give anymore.

I've got a question."..Can I throw it all away?"Take back what's mine..So I take my time, guiding the blade down the line..Each cut closer to the vein
This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating...

Something takes a part of me.Something lost and never seen.Everytime I start to believe,Something's raped and taken from me... from me.

Sometimes I cannot take this place.Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.Sometimes I cannot feel my face.You'll never see me fall from grace

Feeling like I have no release
Feeling like a freak on a leash.

yea...juz a messed up blog ..wif messed up lyrics...of divine shit of life...\m/ love u shakir

2006-11-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

i admit,it has bin a wheeze to get me irritated nwadaes...i dunno wts happening to me,i neva did bother 2 find out...but i haf a rough idea of wts happening..i gez...im nt sure whetha i cn change back..im too filthy,ignorant,n many mre of wt i hate bein...but the devils says"its okay to bhave like this sweetheart" hehe...n i sang with the devils"im so fucked up,dtz okay,coz so are they...yeayeayea"..okaeeee..serious plz fina..hmm..sumtimes wen a gurl feels ugly,its nt alwaes ryte dt u sae she's beautiful...coz sumtimes..witout noeing,ur the 1 dt made her feel ugly..a gurl has her cnfidence by potryin her own image,...if she's told diz image doesnt suit her,evendoh all thiz wile she's bin like dt n hepi,she cnt help but fil ugly..threfore loses a big notch of cnfidence in her...wile she's at gloom of her image,expect gloomy daes...n seasons of pure sighz...it sux...did u eva quesntioned urself" what happened to her"? well,i'll ask u another question.."did u take sumtin from her"...n ur anz will b...mayb i did..i took her cnfidence...\m/..love u shakir

2006-10-21T01:17:00.000-07:00

haiya...juz hate hari raye la..irritatin seh,ppl are forced to ask 4 frgiveness to the ppl dey dislike..as much as dey dun wan to...irritatin..den thr comes the part whr..u haf to hidangkn air la,makananla,kmas rumala,tolong mk msakla,tok to mkck2la,feel awkwardla,tiredla..arrgghh.irritating seh...den will haf to go to my stupid father's side,the brother of my father,my uncle in otha werds..evrytime part mintk maaf,(as much as i tk berdose lngsng kt die,psl tk perna pon bebual ngn die,ape lgk jumpe)..afta the mintk maaf part,he'll ask to read surah al-baqarah..n ill alwaes b stuck after a few pages of the Quran..haizz...the funny ting is..im the 1 in the family hu is alwaes told to read the Quran..nt my sista,nt my motha,nt my father,he shud ask my father to read or my sista,,both wun evn hafal a bit of the Quran oso...haizz..i dun wan to go dt old man's house la..irritating maut la...kecik2 hari raye fun la..da besar menyusahkn tu adela...nk kne tunjok gud impression je..n hu told u im GOOD? arrggh..bingetla..I DUN WANT TO CELEBRATE!!!\m/ love u shakir

2006-10-15T06:04:00.000-07:00

bulan puase..mimpi burok2 ..ape ni? one point i dreamt dt thrs a flood..tink tsunami..was in a panic state..wif my frenz..i dunno huz voice telling me to go to the tall building to stay on the high lands...so as nt to drownla..frenz n i(still cnt remember hu)..scrambling up the stairs of dt building(n u noe in dreams,u cnt run very fast)..till the water rushed up..n i was underwater..but i was calm..n the water..was the most crystallised water ever...beautiful..nt dirty..n wen the water was juz at my shoulders...a fren told me...tunggu jp...i will help u..n dtz wen i drowned..dunno whetha i drown la..but i was underwater..den change scene ready....dunno whetha gud or bad drimla..duno y i tellin u all wt i dreamt of oso..its nt like u wud cre ryte,,hahakz ..nvmz...niwaes..im tired of ppl judging me by my lookz...by my outfront...u kill me assholes!!!stop it k..\m/ love u shakir..

2006-10-10T00:16:00.000-07:00

i wish i haf my goth book wif me..i rilli nid to end diz chapter..haizz...is life gettin cruel,or am i being cruel to life...both i suppose..shall i write a poem? mayb ive lost my touch..its bin soo long..haiz..lets try..4get bout it..ive bin tinkin 4 the past 30 minz i tink..haizzzzzz..but it tink i gt a poem sumwhr which i wrote nt too long ago..found it

Anchor me down,meeting me up with your deepest phobia
Unseen once before,now I sensed your hysteria
Blinding anger,selfish dying hunger for kill
Possesed,fantasizing about something already real
Happening before your eyes,prey slaughtered,in your hands
Sleepwalking as a pastime,murdering while in a trance
Not a question to ask,why didn't you have any friends?
Dropping down to your knees,told me you want to be cleanse
Midnight came crawling above our heads,I know i'll be gone soon
Slashing every inch of my skin,witnessed ungratefully by the solemn moon
Satisfaction of a min or two,you sat in a corner,consumed by guilt
Crying and laughing as u see me start wilt...\m/

diz poem is about sum1 hu keeps sumtin to himself,til he cudnt cntrl it,n many were hurt coz dere's nutin to stop him frm killin..nt dt he wants to kill,,bt cnt cntrl it..a mixture of emotions cn be seen in him...frm the start to the end of the kill..\m/last 3 lines juz onli thought of

2006-10-08T00:48:00.000-07:00

these past few daes had bin dreadful..im looking frward to a new dae..i rilli do..yestadae...i went to accompany fana(my sis) to her filming thingy..went to pasir ris,esplanade n arab street...2dae as im washin the dishes i tot bck on hw hepi fana was yestadae during her filming...acting haf alwaes bin her passion besides singing n dancing...n its bin awile,i realised, sinz she last acted...she had to quit stagearts coz her guy doesnt like d idea of her actin out as sumone else's gf or sumtin like dt...so yestadae she gt to do sumtin dt she havent bin doin sinz god noes wen...i was hepi 4 her....it was den onli..dt i also realised ..dt i had sumtin in common wif her...we both sacrificed our passion 4 the 1 we love the most...the tings we do 4 love may not be seen,but hopefulli felt by the ones we love dearly...is dt hw it werkz? i remember the daes wen she 1st quit her stagearts in dancing,den in acting...she kept on cmplaining ..dt my ears were sore...cmplaining hw she's nt able to do diz n dt..n i was juz like sighing 4 her,,i was tinkin..ur the 1 hu wanz to quit ..so y r u like cmplaining nw?..,its now onli dt i realized hw she truli felt..n i wished i had bin thr 4 her more...its juz dt we put love in a place wae before our passion...yea..i duno hw to end diz post..i'll juz stop ryte here. \m/

2006-10-06T02:54:00.000-07:00

hahakz..im havin so much fun creating these dolls..as u cn c on the extreme left..are dolls of ville valo(none other than the vox of HIM) n my darlin count shakir..hehe..i custom made those dolls myself...wt cn i sae..ville valo is real hotsexygay...n my love shakir,is as sexy as well evn with clothes on...hakz..dtz my point..i may b obsessed with ville valo,but shakir is still the 1 I nid..understand dt love? hehe..mmuax..had a great tyme wif u on wed...wed ryte? cnt remember la..mmuax\m/ love ya swithard..

2006-09-29T00:06:00.000-07:00

haizzzzzzzz...bin sneezin 4eva man...+ a sorethroat..evryone's nt filin wel nwadaes..wonder y...no nid wonda la..love's out..moto prac,hmm..he'll haf to rush home again to break fast,,,kesian...hmm..juz 2 mre pracs and a final test,n u cn flash ur liscence already..hehe..all the best swithard...god bless u..\m/aaaaahhhcum..hehe..ouh ya..i wanna make kueh raye tonite..haiz..i tot kim oso comin over to help..but my sister,nana,aslip la..suppose to go buy the ingredients n rent a movie...but dt idiot has bin sliping sinz god noes wen..haizzzzz..wake up!!!im bored,,,cnt mit love tmw...break fast at my grandma's...whoppie 4 me,haizz 4 shakir..\m/

2006-09-27T23:56:00.000-07:00

hmm...wt about todae,nutin 2 sae..lets tok bout yestadae/the dae b4/b4 todae/semalam/sebelom niari...wen out with syahidah..yar..went to spotlite get sum cloth la...for syahidah's rm makeova(so called la)..hehe..took i dunno hw long to dcide on the cloth...but okla..den walk3..look at kasot raye..but neva buy...hmm..window shoppin all the wae..went to bishan oso..buke at sakura northpoint..coz syahidah claimed dt sakura at diff2 outlet diff price range...ouh my goodness!!!now den i remember..im suppose to help her choose the stapler at handifix..u noe...those huge ones..u cn use to staple on wood...haizz..poor ting..i 4gotla..sry babes..hehe..\m/ love u shakir,miss u lots

2006-09-26T00:31:00.000-07:00

i dunno wts heppening...im deaf to my heart n mind..i blind myself to the tings i want...im tired,tired,tired...im bored as hell..cnt mit my guy..yet..it fills ok...mayb coz i still dunno wt to wear...i cnt b breakin dwn evritime i dress up...metal was 4eva in my life...i dunno y i put metal sngs in my blog still(play the 2nd song by clickin at my pic blow)...cnt get over it? nt sure,mayb nt now...my guys nt well at all,,,i mean realli nt well,,,i dunno hw to help ,,AGAIN.

2006-09-23T02:48:00.000-07:00

undastand the tings i saed,dun turn awae frm me,coz i spent half my life out thr...u wudn't disagree..do u c me?do u c? do u like me,do u like me standing there?do u notice,do u noe,do u c me,do u c me? does ani1 care?
unheppiness,whr's wen i was young n we didnt gif a damn..coz we were raised,to c life as fun n take it if we cn..
undastand wt ive bcome...it wasnt my design..wen ppl evrywhr tinks of...dey better den i am..i miss u,i miss..coz i liked it,coz i liked it..wen i was out thr..do u noe dis? do u noe?you did not find me,u did not find...does ani1 cre?...

a song dedicated to ghostdoll...a goth once,,nw distanced..\m/
if u dun c hw dis song is related to her..fuck u..i wun bother 2 xplain..to sum1 inside hu died,a twin...gudnite...ashes to ashes,dust to dust,,,frenz,plz voice out ur filings nw or 4eva hold ur peace...\m/

i cannot distance myself,u were the one to believe
that onli half of a gurl
half more den u cud deceive

i dunno wat to believe
sew up the sore make it fake
wen ur the boy that i want
ill be the gurl dat u hate

i am so distant myself
i guess i never believed
dat u cud take it awae from me
n i haf no time to grieve

you'll end up dead in the end
star no star
you'll end up right here my friend
star no star
WE'LL END UP DEAD IN THE END
STAR NO STAR
WE'LL END UP RIGHT HERE MY FRIEND
STAR NO STAR

2006-09-22T00:34:00.000-07:00

wed, fort canning again...bad place...shudnt haf gone thr...haizz..hakz...another spine chillin tale to tell...\m/

2006-09-19T00:02:00.000-07:00

haiz...i dunno hw to help him...i tried...ill cntinue tryin..bt i rili dunno hw to help him...im startin to tink ive gt brain tumour,(touchwood pass to the real trees)..overeactin as usual..dtz me..yup..bin havin headaches n difficulty breathing sinz the last tyme i almost blackout in a train...heppened twice,n dey sae wat heppened once,wen heppened twice,will heppened thrice...dey over here refering to lisa,my sis n myself..nola..nt brain tumour la..tink coz i dont smoke regularly dtz y my brainz nt functioning well...n makin me feel lethargic n easily exhausted...sigh...\m/

2006-09-01T01:21:00.000-07:00

hahakz..hepi..ok..im hepi..bring me those chocolate covered macadamia(macademia??maca..?) nuts...SINZ CHOCOLATE,brownies frm mrz fields....kip goin n more nyamok will gigit u fina...n ur vampire oso..hehe...swit blood 4 the sinners in the world..\m/ love u shakir..

2006-08-28T01:59:00.000-07:00

2dae..dont evn start off well...1st of all..i cnt find my polo tee..n few minz lata realize it was in my anotha bag...den on my wae to skul after changin the train at ct hall...i gt a sit n sat...was listenin to the mp3 wen i started feel abit giddy...so i off the music...n wen to rest my head bck..n it gt werser,i swear i cudnt breathe in..like as doh sum1'z holding my breath...den of coz if u cnt breathe..ur brain wudnt function...n i juz close my eyes..cn fil my heartbeat gettin slower...still trying to get fresh air...my head flopped to the side..im stil aware of wts goin on..i kept on tellin myself i cn do it..i cnt faint in the train...my hands by the tyme numb...sumhw i still breathe deep..evendoh nuting gt to my lungs i tink...kol my fren fiza,didnt pick up,kol nurul..(dying ready)...reject kol..kol fiza again..n finally picked up...thnk goodness..n told her wts happening..my voice fading ..coz to hard to tell wts goin on..n she gt panic it seemz...hahakz...i reached bedok n by the tyme my breathing was betta but still..feeling like crap...i walk dwnt he stairs..i duno hw long i took to get dwn coz it seems alot of ppl overtook me...thru the ticket gates....n i was walkin as doh im high on drugs with my pale face(as described by fiza wen she saw me)..walkin3..n a policeman was eyeing me..n i needed help at dt point bt i tink twice..n another policeman eyed me again..i juzt cntinued walking like a zombie...thank god they dun tink im taking drugs or i'll kill them 4 wasting my time...i sat at the bustop..n came fiza,fira,n fifi..tiz ppl mati2 ask me to eat sumtin..so went skul,cafe 3 ..drank a bit of milo ate a bit of pau...n still felt fucking giddy...so i cnnt thn..after bfd...fiza helped kol my mum..n my mum ask me take a taxi hm...in the taxi talking to the uncle..haiz..uncle pon mcm gatal...tkpela..bebual je...n thnk god im home ryte nw feeling wae betta...\m/...my swithards nt feeling well also..poor ting..

2006-08-26T00:26:00.000-07:00

life is juz gettin werser den sickening...i duno..shakir saed thr isnt a nid to cntc him if im not coming back to him..i wish i cud go back to him without feeling like crap...but i dun wan history to repeat itself...fucked up la..nw im lonely..n too free...n nt hepi...i cnt share my feelings with him ready..i gt noone...im nt looking 4 ani1 oso..shakir was one in a gazillion..i swear..haiya...onli skul kept him awae frm my mind once in a wile onli..cnt stop tinkin of himla..ok let me try b hepi 4 awile...i wanna sae dt i accomplished sumtin in skul n it took lots of technique,,,i managed to climb over the skul gate coz the otha gate was metres awae..n it was burning hot..no choice juz climb ova la...den also i finished my roleplay..i had to act out as a customer 4 bad customer service thingy..n me n fiza wore home clothes all the wae in skul(wich obviousli we're nt suppose to b doin) acting like poly student...hakz...n wen the police car drove past me,i realized i can smoke without worrying..coz i was wearin my home clothes! cool huh?..hakz..yestadae nurul told me sumtin wich i didnt noe...u see..i frm yishun will change mrt in ct hall to bedok...den home time,bedok to city hall to yishun..i juz knew den going time i was at the dwnstairs platform n going home time,i was at the upstairs platform..all tiz wile i tot i was in the same place..hehe..\m/ sigh..mizz u la darlz..

2006-08-23T00:45:00.000-07:00

im suppose to b in skul bt im at home...im bored..again..its my favourite phrase nwadaes(im bored..again)...hmm...dun fil like goin to skul nimres,,haven bin doin well,bin iting alot,bin slipin nrmalli doh(i slip alot so its nrmal)...bin tinkin alot,,bin angry alot,bin staring at ppl alot...n finding trouble alot as well...im so restless n thoughtless...n i wanna get high...im vicious n morbid..i neva did understand y...i shud b writting my dark poetry sinz im nt happy nimres n i get inspiration dt wae...bt im at laze...so fuckin lazy...yo deber quemadura en infierno! enter my life, n i'll give u neva ending hell!!! walk bside me...n i'll bring u to hell,walk behind me n b my disciple,walk infrnt of me..lead me to the right path.....\m/ bring me home or leave me b, my love in the dark heart of the nite,i have lost the path b4 me,the 1 bhind will lead me!!! \m/... shakir if onli i cn still talk to u bout wts bin heppening in skul or hows my dae...we dun evn noe each otha nimres...sigh

2006-08-22T06:21:00.000-07:00

finally,i realised i nid to do sumtin wif my blog..so i change it back to the old format thingy..my goodness...so much has heppened..n its freakin nt gud at all...i repeat..freakin no good at all...i broke up with the love of my life evndoh we still love each otha...n onli me n few of my frenz noe y la..wteva it is..as sickenin as the rizen is..dtz the truth bhind the break up..im nt enjoying aniting at all...every page i turn.. scribbled his name,drew a heart,den onli..place my name...nw wad am i to do...shakir cnt move on,i cnt move on..n yet i cnnt patch back with him..coz of the prob..it hurts like hell noein i cnt get bck together with him...i was him n he was me..dtz all dt i cn sae..i saw him change frm a shy guy to a guy huz cmfortable to b with me...i saw the changes..n it felt gud...to noe dt uve made sum1 feel cmfortable to b ard u...do evritin with u...n i'll neva forget the memories n moments dt we share...haizz..poor shakir,im selfish..a prob 4 me too handle,if onli i have the courage n lessen the hatred flowin thru my veins..pumping in my heart..but i noe...i cant!!!! mizz u swithard...\m/

2006-07-22T07:44:00.000-07:00

hmm..just gt back home from mitin my love n watchin kim performin 4 teenage icon...hahakz...well,,it was boring i mean the whole show..bt i noe its even more boring 4 my guy coz obviously,he neva watch these kinda tings la...so tank u very much love 4 sitting thru the show wif me..n accompanying me all the wae to bukit panjang...den sent me back home...sampai kt tangge...hahakz...also thnx 4 the 40 cents wen i got stuck at the bukit panjang lrt gate..coz it seems i enter without exitin or sum shit...hehe..i love u swithard...god bless u...mmuax...\m/ouh ya..fana..dat ice cream thingy was unique n nice...\m/

2006-07-15T01:19:00.000-07:00

okae ppl..i jez gt back from tornin @ lisa's...i went to lisa's ard 5pm...den we dressed up to go baybeats(evendoh we knew its emo's nite*vomits*)wore my spiderweb tube top,spiderweb skirt n purple n black striped pantyhose...went thr..disturb2 the emos...(sumhw or other my guy influenced me to hate emos la)nw i rilli do hate emos...coz they simply follow sweet evritin..as in the trend...den bored ready..we went fort cannin park..it was ard 11pm la i tink...we gt up a whole lot of stairs..went higher n higher(the more higher,the more darker n deserted) then we past a grup of metalheads sittin ard...so we went higher sum more..at last we dcided to stop coz tired readi ryte climb the stairs..can die seh..hehe..n it was fuckin dark n lonely..gt 1 of my fren ni die lemah smangt..she ask me are thr any ghosts here? i saed in a nrmal tone..shud havela...then wen we walkin toward the seats..i lookin ard the trees...n i saw a pontianak..nt close..bt saw it in white..with its long hair..at 1st i tot my eyes were deceivin me..i looked harder..n i was fuckin sure...i let out a scrim..i told them to fuckin hell get out of dt place n quick..i swear i dunno hw i cn jump down a flight of steps without fallin...bt my fren yg lemah smngt ni..she actualli tripped n almost blacked out...bt thank god onli her ankle sprained..poor tingla...den we went to whr the metalheads were sittin jes nw..n asked dem if they mind us sittin wif them...dey sae no,,so we joined la..i tinked they herd me scrimin la..my heart was beatin fast coz i was jumpin down the stairs...so much of stairs summore..hahakz...bt i was jes shockedla.nt scared till i wanna die or wat..hahahahakz..asalkn die tk mengilai i okae...hehe....my another fren actualli went to look to the direction i was lookin(whr i saw the ting) n she saw sumtin white..bt she nt wearing her specs..so thank god 4 her..at 12am or so..we went bck to esp..disturb2 emos summore..den lisa tot this fella emo..then he actualli nt..so she sae all the shitty tings bout emola..the guy turned n sae nicely..i not emo...den i laughing readi...den lisa saed..wt? u nt emo ahz?ok2 i like u...den the fella shake hiz head(as in no,i'm nt) n winked at her...she oso winked back..hakz..lisa2...alot mre happened la..lazy to type..hmm i tink my guyz upset wif me...\m/..love u shakir..

2006-07-11T23:55:00.000-07:00

arrgh!!! i gt a new haircut ppl..n coz i was sooooooooooo daring..i cut my hair to shoulder lenght..n my frinch cut to my brows...hmm reaction from elder sis:ok wad...still fierce wad..hmm..bt longer hair obviously mre nicer...(wen i saed mayb i'm starting to look like an emo)...ya la..u look like emo lah...tulah kutok2 bdk emo lgk...nenek's reaction: haha...adek ptg rambot dek...younger sis reaction:ehz..kakak ptg rambot ehz? hahahaha..kakaknye rmbt mcm kakak maseh kecik la..frinch kakak mcm shasha!!!mom's reaction: eh2..switnye anak mak...(mampoz...).....shakir's reaction:asl pendek nah??.....(haiz)...hehe..nvmla..it'll grow...

sori=i'm scared plz forgive

\m/

2006-07-07T23:46:00.000-07:00

wel...i'm bored..yestadai was our 2 mnthz anniversary...bt didnt celebrate la..jez wish2 onli..neva mit shakir coz ..yala we both live damn far frm each otha..so kinda hardla to mit evridae kn...den lisa koled..asking me whetha wanna relek2..so ok la..met her at her house...den go pasar mlm by the icy pops...lisa bought chicken too...den sit at dome shade...play guitar..teach lisa guitar..hahakz...her fingers shortla..wteva it is..she accomplished sumtingla..gd2..hahahahahaha...den she nid go toilet..so went to cc toilet..afta dt relek at 303 there...my mum koled coz lepak 2 long readi..hehe..den i went to check hw many ciggy i have left...hahahakz..left 2 onli la..hakz...wif lisa ard ciggies are meant to decrease rapidly..dtz 4 sure..hehe...had fun babes...long tyme neva mit..once in wile mit..evriting goes crazyla..hahakz...dun 4get our portfolio babes...\m/

2006-07-04T23:42:00.000-07:00

haiz..i'm soo irritated dt i cant go out again todae..minz 3 daez readi neva mit my guy...sad seh i..hahahakz...niwaes in the mrning..i meant afternun(kept on tinkin i woke up earli la)...my fren,fifi..called to ask whetha im going 4 our class bbq..den obviousli i cnnt come readi ryte...haiz..actualli i wanted to go pasir ris park todae wif my guy,coz my guy stay dt area ryte den he evritime come down to my area..so it was suppose to b my turn todae to go there...thought of going there den it juz so happens dt my class havin chalet there..haiz n i miz the fun la i gez...den my another fren msg..den another...haiz..bt tmw i'll b miting shakir..woohoo!!!didnt i tell u thurz is my fav dae among all the others? esp wen the sun starts to set....hehehe...mlm jumaat..\m/

2006-07-01T22:45:00.000-07:00

earli mrning ..i meant afternoon..as i read the brite minggu...I GT A SHOCK OF MY LIFE!!!!n its a nasty 1...itz about tiz minah gothz...exposing themselves to the media..n dt fucked up paper wrote TREND MASE KINI...haiz...goth isnt meant to b a trend la oi!!!!itz a lifestyle...nt style,definitely nt 4 fashion...too tired to tel the true definition la...like my fren imran point out the nonsense bout these minah "gothz"...dey listen to good charlotte n dey call dt goth music,they pen down their feelings n tittle dem like mayat,or corpse...,n the most funni part..letting out their frust by goin to heeren!!!!hahahahahahaha....bodohla..nonsense la..haiz..the sad part is..the trendy wendys goin to read thiz paper n will follow suit the goth wear..n we wun noe hw to differenciate the traditional gothz from the mall goths...bt like imran saed again..onli the true ones remains...n i agree..n i felt betta...\m/ haiz pie i told u nt to interview me 4 thiz topic..n u saed okay...bt asl u neva tel ur stupid fren nt to write bout tiz as well?? itz an undagrnd scene..suppose to b low-pro..n TRUE..nt crap...like wtz bein exposed todae in BRITE MINGGU..very stupid...hehe

2006-06-28T05:06:00.000-07:00

*sigh* todae's jez a bad dae...wen i sae its bad..i realli mean it..as usual i go to skool by train...seen a lot of diff ppl evry dae...n todae..haiz..2dae...i gt,i tink tiz is the term'molested' 4 the 2nd tyme....haiz..jes bcoz the fuckin train is full,,,doesnt mean u cn fuckin take advantage of me or any lady out thr u son of a bastard!!!! the 1st tyme..i was in dt stupid crowded train n sum1 touch my a** ...at 1st i tot accidentally la..i mean crowded ryte..bt it seems dt he cntinued to touch..arrgh!! gettin angry jest typing thiz..wen sum ppl alight i quickly moved awae..i turn to c huz the bastard..n it was a stupid pakcik grinning at me...u bloody mothafucka!!! n todae was the 2nd tyme...at dhoby ghaut thiz chinese fella entered...train wasnt that full..i was leaning against the glass...the fella stood close to me facing the door...wen i sae close i mean hiz ryte hand was lighty brushin my leg...haizzzzzz....fucked upla..jest tellin all diz...den the train started moving..he gt closer..to the point whr i cant change my position..n wen his hand started realli touching my thighz...n so fucking close 2 sumtin he shudnt b evn close 2...i swear to god..my eyes were filled with tears...i tried to move awae bt he wun let..i mean if hiz nt takin advantage of me..surely he will move awae wen he realize his too close to me ryte..n i was trying to move awae..any gentlemen wud haf known betta...den once reached city hall,the train nrmally stops with a jerk,he oso purposely bumped his bloody hand again...once the door opened..i swept his fucking hands as hard as i cud n made my wae out..askin myself..y is d world so filthy? bt i went to school actin nrmal..doh i'm disgusted...gt a whole lot mre of probz..too long to type...\m/ dun make me a victim of ur thoughtless behaviour...bitchez...

2006-06-26T05:44:00.000-07:00

well...hehe..i'm tired3...jes realized todae... dt the napfa test i did..isnt worth my effort...da marks are nt recorded..in otha werds,the test we did was lyke 4 fun...wtf...i did great in bfd...my recent test ofa..cmfirm fail..coz the fucking teacher made me save my file again..n tiz made me replace the main document with my merged file...n she cn sae out loud to the otha teachers dt i didnt save my main document,whereas she's the coz of me replacing my existing document..fucked up ryte..i mean this is my ca1 seh..my future oso ryte...den i have to type the document over again...n wasted my tyme la...by the tyme i moved to the next document..i was left with onli 20 minz like dt...n yar..wteva2..im failing diz 1..i noe...haiz..jest hope to do well in afd...ouh ya..my ca recommended me n my fren to werk in the school's co-op shop..nt take care of the shop..bt to audit the accounts..hehe...god continue blessing me plz...\m/ aaachum...*sneeze* alhamdullilah..

2006-06-21T06:24:00.000-07:00

i'm tired,legs draggin by heavy2 metal chains.....dtz coz..i juz finished my napfa test..dunno hw to spell la...yar,complete 5 stations...ran 6 rounds ard my skul stadium...putting me thru a shitty moment...haiz...watevala..its over n i'm hepi its done with...tank god my love made all my sorrows n pain go awai...he washes them awae....\m/

2006-06-17T23:10:00.000-07:00

hehehe...yestadai was my 17th bdae!!! i had a great tyme...1 of my best daez...spent it with my darling shakir...i reached orchard 1st...so wile waitin 4 my love...i talked to 4 strangers...hakz...1st 1 askin 4 donation 4 anti-drug and anti-unemployment...next 1 ask to do survey...3rd n 4th..frm the same modellin co. dunola..dey sae gt assignment 4 addidas..dunola...skali must do portfolio again..waste money sakz...ala..dun crela..den my darlin came n gave me my present..hehe..wt susah2 je...we went 2 watched silent hill...den lepak at 211 jp..b4 i went hm..dtz ard 10-30....haiz..went hm..i checked out wt shakir gave me...a beautiful necklace..asl la bli mahal2...n a card..veri swit..veri meaningful,love..also,surprisingli..my mum bought me a cake..n we celebrated 4 awile..den onli i opened my sis gift..n she bought me the biggest version of the voodoo doll!!!woohoo!!! \m/....

2006-06-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

another fren died...ur coffin lowered down to the ground..i tossed memories of our friendship...a handful of dirt 4 u...may u R.I.P....this song is dedicated to u...(play clip)

An angel's face smiles to me
under a headline of tragedy
that smile used to give me warmth
farewell-no werds to sae
bside the cross on ur grave
n those forever burning candles

needed elsewhere,to remind us of the shortness of our tyme
tears laid 4 them
tears of love,tears of fear
bury my dreams,dig up my sorrows
oh lord why..the angels fall first...
...............................
...........................................

sing me a song..of ur beauty,of ur kingdom
let the melodies of ur harps..caress those whom we still nid...
yestadai...we shook hands...my friend....
todae..a moonbeam lightens my path...my guardian....\m/

2006-06-09T23:38:00.000-07:00

haiz...trashed...dtz...wt i'm labelled,dtz wt i went thru...the dae b4 yestadae was thurz..the dae whr roachez crunched underneath my feeet n my soul is lifted higha den heaven..it was my fav dae among all the otha daez...it went beautifulli..till i read my used-to-be-fren's blog..y did i do dt i dunno...bt all tiz wile ive bin readin her blog juz to c hw shes bin..dunno y i was stil care 4 her...read her blog n it seemz dt she brought bck the matter of us both..she saed dreadful tingz bout me nt respecting my mother,saed dt no use i pray 5 tymes a dae bt i dun respect my famili...1st emotion dt pierced me was hatred..divine hatred..pure n warm..i mean hu is she to talk bout my famili..in the 1st place she didnt went thru wt i went thru in life...so hu is she to advise me...wt wud she do if she's in my position? i noe her mum...n i fuckin hel c the diff her mum is frm mine...so...dun expect me to treat my mum the same wae dt u treat ur mum...dtz all...haiz..i cntinued reading..n suddenly my pure hatred changed to serene sadness...sadness u onli feel wen u experience a lost..she wrote about hw she regretted evriting dt she's done 4 me...as awful n as mean as my werds cud get..i never did mention any regrets of her being my fren or anyting dt ive done 4 her...probably my frenship is invsible to her all tiz wile...i noe ive nt done much 4 her as a fren..as in nt helpful enaf...bt i was there wen she had sumtin to complain about..i was dere to gif her support all diz wile...i gez she neva did realised dt...wasnt i dere to make her heppi as much as i possibly cud? wt does she want frm me? oh my god..itz jes sad...i'm pathetic nw..wel a few minutes afta reading the blog..i fought wif my mum on sumting small...den gt her sarcastic nagging as well...dad joined in..felt werser den neva b4..changed my clothes n went out..ard 8pm..went bck home onli ard 6-30 am...alot happened..i wasnt heppi...bt lisa n shakir was dere 4 me...god bless u both....~all of the moments dt have already fade,i try to go bck n make them last~ \m/

2006-06-06T06:52:00.000-07:00

hey3...wel todae..nuting muchla heppen...went to skul..late by a few minz..it was bfd...tank god change teacher readi..so it was a better learning experiencela todae...hahakz...wel..da funny ting bout dt lesson was dt..thrz 1 fella hu bluetooth hiz pic ova to my classmate by mistake...den my classmate gt shocked ready...as u noe,our classes are seperated by glass windows..so we cn c the fella nex class...so my frenz went to disturb the fella..by writin on a piece of paper,saying..ur face very ugli...n put it against the glass wall...for them to read..hahakz...well afta dt ofa...went inside class 4 awile..take attendance..den ciaoz...2 hrz seh..hu cn thn? not me...so left afta 3o minz la i tink...ate beef spaghetti at cafe 2...i was full...den cheo's class...den sw...i like lazy to go..bt went onlila..was raining..no nid do aniting..gave particulars to fhirhad onli...n mr. fhirhad saed out loud to the whole class my bdae's coming..now i'm goin to kena sabo..mampoz...hahaha \m/

2006-06-02T03:11:00.000-07:00

hmm,yestadai..we gt 2 hrs of break,so we went to eastpoint...we all decided 2 go 2 nuruls house 1st coz wanna take kfc coupon la(budget ryte)..on the wae dere..nurul bcame our tour guide n tell us bout the area...coz fiza n i dunno much bout the area la...she showed us the haunted old changkat changi skul..n it seems dt her keturunan actualli studied in dt skul...if nt mistaken,her dad,uncle..all studied dere...power ahz..den she told me at nyte she's veri scared to walk dere..4 the place is eerie..she said sumtin like thiz"if i walk at nite,i walk very slowly,coz i'm scared"...den...i asked her...if ur scared means,y da hell will u walk so slowly for? ppl scared walk fast ryte,bt she ahz,differentla..walk slowly...hahakz,so she said..well,i dun wan the ghosts to tink dt i'm afraid of dem...nonsense ryte?...hahahahakz..also,dere's 1 point whr the bangla,were cutting down those tree branches...so we all clever ryte,we walk towards dt direction..stupid ryte...den down dere gt lots of huge,gigantic red ants..n those ants were crawling up my legs..i quickly brushed dem off..screaming 4 mercy at the same tyme...den gt sum of those ants trying to get into my shoes...bt i managed to brush dem off...den i suddenly silent,nurul ask...gt any ants went inside ur shoes nt..i saed no...den i laugh..n i bcame noisy again...nurul also assured me dt those ants were tame..dey wun bite..so i said ok...went bk hm...open my shoes....my flesh was red..due to those nasty red ants bite..pain seh....NURUL U LIAR!!! watchout ahz..tmw..i collect ants n put inside ur shoes..hehe..hahahahahahkz...\m/ love u shakir...

2006-06-02T02:44:00.000-07:00

hey ppl...hahakz..skul cn be damn tiring...bt its fun...with my frenz ard...fiza n nurul...hahakz..real close to dem...fiza...she's gt the habit of going out of our skul lift at the wrong level...bt she will neva admit dt she's blur..dunno yla...she alwaes blame me...hahahahakz...wt seh..hakz d otha tyme we wanted to go to level 1...bt kt level 6 she got out ready...the face hackcare sumore...swinging her lanyard in circles...den i was still in the lift(fortunately,we both onlila in the lift)den i look at her..i was wanderin..y seh,she go out? den gt sum guys wanna use the lift ryte,so i gt out,follow herla..i mean if i shout at her dt she's in the rong level,surely she paiseh ryte...as a gd fren,i gt out...once the guys gt in n da lift door closes...i shouted at her n laugh like hell..hahahakz...haiz...den she cn act sumore...sae i never tell herla,wtla..n she repeated the same mistake ova again...haiz..fiza2..hahakz...

2006-05-26T05:48:00.000-07:00

hey, well yestaday it was my love's bdae..hahakz...i had a hard tyme plannin wt to buy or wt 2 do with him on his bdae...coz,ppl like me do tings at the eleventh hour..hakz..erm,lets see.his bdae was on thurs..n i bought his present on a tues,coz den onli i gt sum money to buy sumting,wanted 2 buy a card as wel,bt money gone..hehe...wed,i planned wt 2 do with em,den the idea struck me,i wanted 2 buy a cake n sing 4 em the bdae song,watch em make a wish n blow the candles..hehe...so thank god i gt sum money again...n afta skul i quickly rushed from simei,to bedok,to cityhall,to yishun...hahakz..go to a cake shop...n had a hard tyme choosing coz i didnt haf enaf in my pocket..den i remembered my sis was sumwhr near the area(coz earlier she was at the polyclinic,sickass la) so i called her..n borrowed money ..hahakz..wt a genius i am....n so went back hm,shower, den i hated the plastic bag for the cake...like the pasar 1..so i went to search 4 a paper bag,,,4 like half an hour...after dt..i went to nrthpont to get serviettes n forks..4 the cake..went 2 mac,the stupid gurl gave me 1 serviette,went to bk..ic bz..so went to long john,got few serviettes n a fork...i asked for forks!!!haiz...so wtevala..den i met him,wished him..and salam him..carried on with my plan..thnk god it turned out well!!!\m/

2006-05-24T05:34:00.000-07:00

tired la skul..tmw my sygnye bdae..plannin sumting for him...hehe...\m/

2006-05-23T05:41:00.000-07:00

hey..wassup2..my life is monotonous in the skul life thingy...love life..great...hmm...headaches..tink 2 much at tymes...niwaes...its nt dt i dun like skul,bt the lessons r realli dry...especially bfd..toking bout history of bizness all...fuckin boring...all cn read in textbk wt...no nid go class oso cn wt...haiz..then ofa...type3..till i die,itz nt like da teacher noes whetha we did the assignment nt oso.....afd...okla..basic accountin dt ive learnt in sec skul..so far easy...hopefulli will remain dt wae la..kwah3..i look 4ward 2 breakz..d otha tyme,my bfd lecturer absent..so gt 3 hrs break altogether,hahakz..duno whr to go..so fiza n i go eastpoint ,,ate at kfc..den we explore da neighbourhood thrla..veri old ahz the buildings..i jez onli realised seh..den we go simei cc..go upstage dance2..play with the curtains,switches backstage..trying 2 find sumtin to do...go upstairs found a garden...haiz..y da hell am i tellin all tiz?? kla bye...\m/

2006-05-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

hell-o...evryone..haiyz..todae sat ryte..suppose to stay at hm n relax...but no,ppl lyke me can neva b hepi...i've to wake up at 5-30am just to go skul 4 a stupid walkathon ard the perimeter of my skul..haiz..wtla..nonsense ryte..do it 4 cip onli..cant go anywhr without cip points wt...true? true...afta the stupid walk..it seems dt the teachers dun cre if we go hm or wt oso...my guy wanna send me hm..so ..wile waiting 4 him to shower n style his hair..(vain ryte..)hehe..me n my fren went to watch sum bands performin la...1st 1 sux la (2 me)..2nd 1..nice seh...the vox vocal very the power seh...bt i dunno wt genre la..i tink alternative rockla..the voice lyke rock kapak..a.k.a glam rock..nicela..so my lecturer ni die diri bhind me..n he was supporting the band, cheering them on..hahakz...he oso noes that i listen to metal..saw my guns n roses bag..n ask all...hakz..niwaes met my guy afta dt..relax at 212..den my mum kirim kacang hijau..so we go buy..den i nid the toilet..so go toiletla..bodo..hakz.. this a pic of my guy niwaes ..stole it frm his frensta..hehe.... ...love u syg...

2006-05-18T23:47:00.000-07:00

Hey bitches..its bin awile sinz i last updated..i noe...ok so thr are amazing tings dt had happened and is still happening...thrz much more stuff dt has been going on...arite i'll tell u all,1 by 1..ok?
1. i've gt a bf!!!!(shakir syg)...hehe...nice guy,c,i'm onli attracted to nice guys...
2.i started school at last!!!(ite simei) skul's huge like hell...loved it...
3. i started praying(maghrib/ishak) slowly la...hakz
4.i cant blieve i manage to run 1 round at my skul stadium...(i gt shocked) i swear...hehe
5.6.7.8.9.10........i'm in love...at last after ard 2 years..ive found the 1 4 me...this 1 stays..hopefully...i've said it b4..i'll sae it again...i wun search 4 anotha,4 i've found u,n my gaze will onli b upon u,therefore..he,who,occupies my heart..will onli be u...swithard...hehe..kla...n 1 mre ting..guyz,plz cntinue being my fren..juz bcoz i'm attached now..1 by 1 running away ryte..i noe..hakz..up 2 u all la..i'm nt a fren who comes n goes...\m/

2006-04-20T04:35:00.000-07:00

Oh my good Lord...,have mercy on me...my goth book part I meanz the hell 2 me...whr the hell is it now?...in it contained my handwritten poems of misery,my gothic diary entries,my memories of the yr 2005...pics..pics of my friend hu died..my own stories...now i cant update my stories in my blog...4 i fear the book is gone...i treasured it like hell..bt i..didnt keep it ryte..my apologiez..plz..hand the book back 2 me,once again let me hold it in my hands...the beautiful texture...n the gruesome drawingz on the cover...n i had cared out tiz sign- \m/ ,on the back of my book... I WANT MY GOTH BOOK BACK!!!!!

2006-04-17T00:02:00.000-07:00

hmm....i onli eat chocolates wen i'm in love...bt lately i've bin craving 4 dem!!! gosh,the beautiful taste of it all..juz haunts me...n still i haven bought even a bar of choc...coz i dun have a single penny...i've bin craving 4 those chocolate covered macadamia nuts,the $4 fudge cake in ntuc,those shell like chocolates ppl give away during christmas...wen my mum give me my allowance i'll by a big box of chocs 4 myself...hehe...haiz...cant stop dreaming of it all,,,hmm...dose expensive chocs from SINZ..taste so gd i can explode with love...hehe..bt of coz i chose the non-alcoholic 1 la...hakz..well..i'm nt a chocolate poser like sum ppl i noe...hu eats chocolate ryte i afta i stop eating chocs at 1 point of tyme....n asking evrione to by her a choc...n she'll die if she doesnt eat a choc 4 1 day....wt kind of nonsense...bloody copycat...if u wanna b my fren,b original...jez coz i retired as a chocolate lover doesnt mean u own the tittle...freak..